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2008-12-15T11:47:00.000+08:00

click here!

byebye blogspot.

2008-12-13T22:57:00.002+08:00

happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me
happy birthday to y-von-ne
happy birthday to me

((:

tt sounds damn emo. but actually today was awesome. gen went for YI camp in the end, but mag, teri, joan and i decided to go on with zouk anyway, with an addition of alfred. hur. we saw dyan and merelda there. how coincidental pls. met mitch as well, who on the spot started singing 'IJ frens are frens for life' lol!!

so anyways, my drinks were all sponsored last night, thks to teri and alfred. heh. alfred treated some dragonbomb [if im not wrong] its redbull+a shot of smtg. i like. cos cant taste the shot at all. hur. rest of the night was spent dancing to the spinnings of ger's grand uncle, DJ andrew chow. woots. i cant believe he's coming for open hse.

after tt, back to teri's place with joan to watch not 1, but 2 brit movies. hur. i dunno how we lasted. watched 'wild child' and 'angus, thongs and perfect snogging'. after which, i declared i wanted a brit boyfriend.

... ... are you mental? [pronounced with brit accent]

dinner-ed with the family at billy bomber's at the cathay. hur. my dad damn nice la. both times i wanted to pay -for my phone and dinner tonight- but both times he ended up paying for me. he say its my bday present. awwww... vonnie so touched.

oh yea, i got new phone!!!! muahah. no need to endure tt screwed up nokia any more. i got a sony ericsson W595, same as xh. heh. i love.

hokay, i havent recovered enough sleep from last night yet, so off i go now.

upcoming:
-com's ball
-OTCW!!

2008-12-08T10:07:00.002+08:00

koped this from jes. hur. cant be helped, she produces nice collages. i think if her communications career doesnt work out, she can be a photographer. lol.

2008-12-05T23:36:00.002+08:00

omg omg omg omg omg

in abt 12 hrs time, my sister would be married!!!!

!#%&(_)*^$@-=)+)#@_(!#$^&+!

2008-12-03T13:24:00.002+08:00

for all ASc SIP pple!

http://www.unc.edu/depts/wcweb/handouts/lab_report_complete.html

you're welcome
((:

tho i dont think anyone from school comes here.
ahwell. their lost. hur.

2008-12-02T11:41:00.002+08:00

hokay. so on saturday i was out with SU subcomms for 'The Promise' musical. hur. its abt the life of Jesus, from nativity all the way to resurrection. was pretty cool. they had like a swimming pool full of water for the baptism scene, and get this, 2 real ponies for the travelling to Bethlehem scene k. lol!

after tt, went to Holland V for dinner. yay!! first time there. [ashely noob.hur.] awesome place pls!! had thai express then cold rock. budden brandon, giddy and i went over to 7-eleven and sneaked in B&J. hahahha. pls ar, i dunno how we finished tt pint while brenda tallked abt all her disgusting habits. hurhur. zomg la. i dont think u wanna hear it. anyways, after tt went to check out wala wala. great place. gfs, we can go there chillax some time yea.

tt was an awesome day out with subcomms. sigh. SIP pls faster end so i can go back to school. ):

on sunday, wah wah wah, whole day with gfs leh. lunch at sushi tei, where we were our usual cranky self. i wanted to say bimbotically, but i said bimbolly. hahahahha. i swear i only get tt way ard gen!! den spent the afternoon at gardens club trying to test mag and letting teri see my art pieces. woots. and after one whole weekend, we're still meeting up next week. heh. but this time at posh place with all of us dressed up
((:

gfs love lah.

early on monday morning, gen and i headed down to raffles the stamford for a journalism scholarship talk. yea, i wasnt expecting much la. scholarships are for the interlectuals. i was more interested in listening to them talk abt journalism. they were pretty interesting individuals. can be quite vicious ar. as usual at qna session, pple raised 'irrelevant' qns abt politics [u didnt expect them to ask only abt the scholarship right?] wah, fierce words ensued. i think u need damn thick skin to be a journalist. hur.

then, off to anna sui to collect sample make-up. hur. i love their packaging pls. if im satisfied with the quality maybe i'll buy ~~and make mommy scold me for buying more make-up~~

i have lj. livejournal you idiot. hahahahah. still learning how to use. but since im at work now [shhhh] i shant bother with the intricate workings of lj. migrate then post here. heh.

hokay boys and girls, back to research ):

2008-11-23T20:33:00.002+08:00

rawr. 6 solid hours of catching up with gen ((: happy time! hur. warned abt some stuff. and omg, i dunno how our convo last 6 hours really. anyway, she was telling me stupid things her boyfren says. lol!

gen: eh, last night i dreamt someone chained me up
andrew: zomg. chris tomlin must be so sad cos his chains are gone

smtg along those lines la. walao. rofl! laugh until can die. lol!

listening to 'as it is in heaven' now. reminds me of liver. hur. tt poor boy )): kena confined cos his instructor steal his rifle in thailand. so now 4 weeks nv go church alrdy -pouts- den he so cute, last night he msged to say he very sad all. lol. i miss you lah please. come back soon!

2008-11-23T01:06:00.002+08:00

hokay. so today was like grooming day or smtg. hah! started off with a hair cut -beams- at my hse downstairs. i had expected to pay more la. anyways, no regrets. i love my new hair!! lol. and i cant stop touching my hair now. all tt guy did was rinse cut and blow dry. but it feels as tho he used some 100 bucks serum-what-not. hur. yay! i think i just found myself a personal hairdresser. hur. he rmbs me. i hope its not cos i was previously late for appointment.

after tt, off to amk hub with mommy to find wedding dinner dress. its a purplish-pink tube dress tt my mom cant stop complaing abt but still say pretty -.- oh, can i just say, i detest insincere promoters. my god. this woman at the shop see me take dress alrdy, just casually took another similar cut but yucky looking dress off the rack and ask me to try. like she didnt even ask what kind i want, or what occasion lah. pfft. quit your job lah. i also worked as promoter before, abeit two weeks, so its not like i dont know how it is. gah.

after tt, off to j8 to the dermatologist and threadist. hur. my mom lor. must personally ask the doctor if my face is improving and complain to him tt i use make-up. seriously, if my face cleared up completely, i obviously wont use right -.- anyways, doctor said its fine -sticks tongue out at mommy [in front of doctor]- hahaha!

wah. today was the most painful threading i've ever done pls. stupid woman, thread against the direction of the root hair. walao. my tears kept flowing -.- tsk. next time go back little india alrdy.

so, just back from dinner with jeremy and marcus. we went hard rock cafe. was pretty cool, cos the only other hard rock i went was in melbourne [near the duxton hotel i was staying! (:] they had electric guitars, and stuff from the beatles and jimi hendrix. was awesome la. after tt, walked from hard rock all the way to paragon starbucks to look at xmas lights. and omg, i was breaking the white heels im gonna wear for my sister's wedding pls. i think im damn evil to my feet leh, tho it did less damage than what i expected.

rawr. session tml. and finally a meet-up with gf gen!!!! babe's Alevels finally over!!!! so off to sleepyland i go!!!!

2008-11-21T00:09:00.002+08:00

woots!! back from OTCW dinner!!

we were at tm swensens. i swear ar, zain is the joker of the year please. hur. soon, he'll beat anybody hands down. gideon says even benchow. hahah! lemme give you an example:

kahyuen: i think you look like from IT school lor
john [shouts across the table]: eh eh emilla, which school do i look like i come from?
(emilla thinks. like for damn long)
zain: i know i know. primary school. hahahhahah.

zomg. yes, the whole dinner was this crappy. lol. and and and, we went to sit bumper car!!!! ((: i think the last time i sat was in kindergarten or smtg lah. hur. damn fun. i share car with brandon. at first i wanted to drive, budden after tt i scared. hahaha. so in the end, i step pedal and he steered. please lets go again. -grins-

oh yes, there was a busker outside the mrt station. he was malay but singing jay chou songs. and all the jay chou idiots [including me. hur.] just stood there watching him and another old man play. hahah! if they practiced hard enough, maybe they'll be good enough to do gigs. but i dont know anyone who does, or even goes for chinese gigs lah.

so i'll be out with jeremy and his fren marcus this saturday. omg omg omg. i hope i know what im doing. anyway no strings attached right. i hope sherry is there or smtg. heh.

hokay. off i go. else, tml at work, fall asleep again. which is actually an everyday affair. hur.

2008-11-14T00:17:00.002+08:00

back from the carrot cake conversations. im not believing any crappy movie reviews no more! i read one that said the movie was bad. but, oh man, no way! i loved it! shoo you depthless shallow people. yes, i just used 2 adjectives of the same meaning tgt. gahhhh.

anyways. i thot the way the adrian pang character proposed to andrea de cruz was damn sweet lah. hur. it wasnt even a question, like he knew the answer alrdy.

-von goes awwww-

jes, i , joan and anne [in sitting order] were being a nuisance in the theatre. lol. jes kept cringing when the ang moh wanted to kiss tt alaric tay person. hur. we laughed the loudest when the security guard at the airport 'sniggered'. rofl. its suppose to be another sort of laughter i guess, but it looked to us as tho he was sniggering. hurhur. and in my mind, all i could think of was: 'this is andre chichak'. hahahahah.

i need some jazzy xmas songs please. anybody? jon offered tho. yay!! but i wont be online tml ):

cos tml is ccn.
oh.
my.
goodness.
had to finish making 300 badges yday. reached home like at 2am+? am damn shacked now. need sleep. argh! its 12.30!

rawr.

2008-11-12T00:29:00.003+08:00

first, SEX in the city
then, it was lipstick jungle
now, you have cashmere mafia

why are all these serials micmicking the lives of my girlfrens and i?

lol!! no lah!!!!

we got a long way before we become ~~high-class, branded, powerful tyrants of the office~~
snotty bitches please. hur.

i miss gfs
):

anyways, i spent the whole day reading articles off the net, cuz my supervisor dont let me do work, cuz i sick.

so here's one for the interlectual/philosophical/theological

http://www.catholic.com/thisrock/1995/9505fea4.asp

enjoy!!

2008-11-10T15:19:00.004+08:00

sec2 camp was awesome!!!!

my facebook status says:
yvonne gabrielle is contemplating going back to sfx just for DO

when it actual fact, it shld be saying:
yvonne gabrielle is bumming around facebook, waiting for the sec2 camp group to come into existence so she can add herself in
((:

heh. my co-facils were awesome lah. tgt, we made a retarded team. imagine, daphne and i always ganging up on terence. then still report him to whoever is around at tt time, making whoever go tsk tsk at terence. lol!

and [according to daphne], we also had a lovable group of sec2s!
here they are!!

clockwise from me:
terence, tessa, natasha, daphne, clarissa, sylvester, max and jonathan

mini log!!

all of us

prayers answered!! someone has invited me to the sec2 camp group. hur. jude's brother in fact. k peeps, go tag yourself and kope photos.

2008-10-08T20:15:00.001+08:00

2008-09-20T22:28:00.002+08:00

im not crazy
im just a little unwell
i know right now you cant tell

yes, well, the bug has spread from william to randall and now to yours dearest. its starting to build up. i can feel it ~~in my fingers~~ i feel it in my nose )): hahah!!

so today, im gonna blog abt foreign talent. hur. was with my family dinner-ing at the block downstairs. at a coffee shop, quite recently taken over and revamped by china people [somehow calling them chinese puts us all on equal level, no offence intended]. so anyways, there was this guy who came to take our drinks order. i've nv seen him ard, so i guess he must be new. my dad and i ordered ice lemon tea. and my sister and adrian were sharing a can of ju hua cha [chrysathamum tea]. we ordered 2 ILT and 1 ju hua. den when he repeated our orders, he said 2 ILT and 2 ju hua. and when we told him, only 1 ju hua, he made such a big fuss tt 2 pple were sharing one can -.- hokay, so off he went to get our drinks. 5mins ltr, he came back and asked, 2ILT and 1 lu cha right? and we told him its ju hua cha. 5mins ltr, he came with his whole tray of drinks, and instead of taking the ju hua cha out, he took the lu cha!! how exasperating can this man get lah.

so being amused [and being von], i laughed. and tt guy looked at me and said 'ni xiao she me?' not in a joking manner leh. in this challenging sort of tone. i was nice enough not to reply pls. omg. tt was atrocious service for you. afterwards, my dad told me shld have just said 'xiao ni lor'. sheesh. -shakes head-

finally finished my sister's wedding mass booklet. yes, i drew. hur. free-hand. so all those coming for her wedding mass, pls keep the booklet. lol.

also finished the idiot's guide to creative writing. heh. i actually dont mind spending another 3 yrs at TP studying all the CDS. hahah! i might start writing soon. [actually, the book considers blogging as writing too! (: ) not gonna be shown to the world as yet. i still think abt my traumatic o'level geog telling me i cant write. sigh.

my mum was watching nigella feasts on cable 16 yday. she says she dont like her cooking, but she still watches -.- i actually dont mind the food, but i hate watching her shows cuz of the way she talks. lol. she talks in a damn exaggerated seductive tone if u realise. hur. anyways, after yday, i feel inspired to make tortilla wraps to bring to work. heh. after all, the rest of them always eat upstairs anyway.

von is addicted to 'everybody nose' by NERD. the one tt goes:

all the girls standing in the line for the bathroom
all the girls standing in the line for the bathroom
all the girls standing in the [all the girls standing in the]
all the girls standing in the line for the bathroom

((:

2008-09-18T23:16:00.002+08:00

zomg. the new facebook sucks like mad. so laggy pls. you click on one link and then you wait 5 seconds for the current page to disappear, 10 seconds you see a blank page, and then another 10 seconds for the link you clicked to appear -.-

hokay, here's my SIP update. heh. its been almost 2 weeks alrdy. omg. 18 more weeks leh. damn fast. bahhh. so anyways, my lab got mainly 3 other pple, bhuvana, lucky and william. hur. at first they like damn not friendly ar. randall and i always go eat by ourselves. budden after awhile, we started talking abt random stuff, cuz the waiting times are really atrocious. like sometimes can wait until 2 hours tt kind. anyways, they're damn funny la. if the big boss bugged tt place, i tell u, all of us are goners. lol!!

-sings 'we're all in this together...'-

so anyways, altho whatever i type sounds damn happy, im actually quite emo now. see la. this is what going out with joan does to you. hur. kidding la babe, loves. k la, i is off now. toodles world.

2008-09-14T00:56:00.002+08:00

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stop spamming alrdy guys!! hur. so today was confirmation. not mine tho. but i did help sing. heh. shikes. wished i recorded my cantor part of 'we will run'. then can post and advertise myself for anyone who needs a vocalist. hur. it was perfect for the first time la, praise god. and thks to jon as well. heh. shld have seen our faces. both of us were grinning when i hit the note, even before i finished the whole verse.

anyways, after tt, cuz of the ManU vs Liverpool match, liver was pestering us to go alrdy. hur. we left church damn late ar. cartel had problems with their cable, so we ended up at Liquid Kitchen. omg, we drank so much. actually, it wasnt much la, but we paid alot for it. hur. and liver was the pimp for the night. lol. he had 6 girls ard him. hahah. cam-whored like mad as well. jess is currently tagging the whole world on facebook. and bel too. bobby [anne's cam] died. and kris dont have her cam with her right now. but facebook is going berserk and flooding with comments and tags alrdy.

k, i got a song stuck in my head. its a new one learnt just yday. supposedly spanish but when kenneth plays it, his jazzy playing style turned it into a relaxing-under-a-palm-tree-on-a-holiday song. lol! i like! and i bet jess cant get it out of her head either.

enviatu espiritu, enviatu espiritu, enviatu espiritu
sea renovada la faz de la tierra
sea renovada la faz de la tierra

omg. loggers can just facebook the whole night. i wanna sleep!!!! tml still got session y'know!!!! im outta here mann. post abt internship another day. toodles.

2008-09-04T23:43:00.004+08:00

why hello foot arch pain. random fact: von has bunions. hur. in case you're some kind of orthopedic doctor (: i make nice footprints in the sand. so far, that's the only good that can come out of bunions.

yay. efforts to change my style of writing [or typing] has paid off! but then again, could have been some random spammer. ohwells. i really really do want to get into communications y'know. i dont post up many pictures but i guess i can practice creative wrting here. heh. quite creative what eh?

so what has von been doing the past few days. well... von has been sleeping with the enemy [msn nick]. metaphorically obviously. it is so not helping that i is facil at retreat this weekend. omg. pls dont judge me -runs and hide-

SPOILER [do not read if you havent finished season 3 of 'The L Word']

which also means you freaking slow lah. hur. im freaking slow i know. lol. so yes, i finished season 2 in 2 days. and season 3 in another 2 days. was watching final episode this afternoon when i stopped halfway to go sleep. i know, you're asking like, huh? isnt final episode suppose to be exciting? argh. i spoiled it. i read the ending on wikipedia ): and you know how series are. sucks the life out of you. after marathon-ing, you feel like you live in it. and sadly, in season 3, dana dies, shane and carmen were supposed to get married but the brainless shane went and left carmen at the altar [which is pretty contradictory considering they're lesbians] mann, this is the part of the whole 6 series where it goes downhill after the climax. boo... dont like. need to get my life back mann. start living again. so yea, i'll prolly finish the other half of season 3 final episode when i start sip. lol!!

so what else did von do for the holidays? can i just officially announce, von is virgin clubber no more!! yea, went with sherry and the guys. was quite fun. in fact, i just might go regular. mag and i have a plan. heh.

besides that, just came home from dinner with godma. oh mann, initially she wanted to finance my overseas internship yea? but now tt im not gg, she got me to go shopping with her. and she practically cancelled half the things on my wishlist. actually, im exaggerating. which says something abt my level of materialism. hur. but she did get me substantial amount of stuff for me to feel guilty lah. i think im gonna get her mooncakes. hahah!

from global sounds cafe. was there that day with girlfriends. had an awesome time with them!! we were jumping around like monkeys, fooling around with miniature guitars, better known as ukeleles, and took pictures of us posing under the tables. lol! great ambience, but food dont live up to its expectations. in-house band members quite cute tho. and yea, they have nice mooncakes. chocolate rum in snowskin ((: sounds good by itself already ar? heh. more pictures on FB. like i said, i dont blog pictures. damn lazy pls.

also met up with xiuhui! stupid brandon ps. elene had last minute proj and saf had training. can u believe it, he's back in dragonboat -.- aye. we'll meet up soon la. but meeting up with xh was good. lol! and among other things, i told her abt my 3 year love/hate relationship with -censored- hahah! eh xiuxiu, u better not divulge my secret to anyone please. i will have u strangled.

i think i better go clean up my act for this weekend. omg. fr brian is gonna be so crossed with me.

ps. do not watch 'The L Word' unless you intend to turn gay or lesbian

2008-08-27T16:51:00.002+08:00

hello hello. so i've finished all my papers! no more, for abt almost a year. hur. if i get into uni la. bloody hell, stupid uni selection system. keep making me say '...if i get into uni' more confidence von! you dont wanna be stuck doing lab work for the rest of your life! i is made for the ever-changing excitement of Arts and Social Science leh. not mundane constant lab work. boo...

anyone know some upper management to pull strings from? heh. and i hear liver go 'do you, wanna know? do you, really, really, wanna know?' -.- hokay, inside jokes aside thks.

so on sunday, i gave 9am mass a miss, went straight for facil briefing. [yay! i not in music ministry anymore. now, facil. like GL liddat] so after tt, mugged -last sunday might i remind you, cuz currently, all my papers are done, heh- until late afternoon when gen persuaded me to go for evening mass.

was raining at tt time. but i was so sure it would stop. so so sure, i would walk into church dry as an autumn leaf. hmm, nvm the leaf, and dont even talk abt autumn, cuz the moment i stepped outdoors, the rain just kept getting heavier. and i had to wait at the poorly sheltered bus stop for damn long with wind and rain pouring in. gahhhh.

and i was wearing my new shoes! -.- k, this might sound stupid. i actually had to remove my shoes to run barefeet from the bus stop into church. rar!! cant bear the thot of wet, soggy, one-day-old shoes.

so anyway, guess what. yeap, von is sick. grrr... like immediately one leh. next day, *bam* and im down with blocked nose, fever, muscle aches, ~~mucus-filled~~ runny nose, sore throat, raspy voice, progressing to lost of voice. yes, all in chronological order. boo. i is nasal sounding now. like the nanny. hurhur.

to think i got thru both exam papers. wth. i better not do badly. i still wanna get into uni please. if i can get in tt is -.-

ps. poey's dream is damn weird. rofl. cute-ness la he.

2008-08-20T23:47:00.003+08:00

2 down, 2 more papers to go!! and end of studying. until i make it to the uni tt is.

let me in
to see you in the morning light
to get me on and all along the tears they come
see all come
I want you to believe in life
but I get the strangest feeling that you've gone away
will you find out who you are too late to change?

I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
some times

lift me up
just lift me up don't make a sound
and let me hold you up before you hit the ground
see all come
you say you're alright
but I get the strangest feeling
that you've gone away
and will you find out who you are too late to change?

don't give me up
don't give me up tonight
or soon nothing will be right at all
salvation
cuz when you find out who you are too late to change?

I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted

Every Little Thing by Dishwalla

rawr. i have no idea what im doing here. its like a dream told me to post smtg subconsciously. i had stuff to post the other day. but 'had' is past tense. and the stuff's gone off from my memory now. all i can think of now is 'what the hell am i doing with my life?' i have no idea what im doing here. so im gonna go now.

2008-08-15T07:22:00.002+08:00

hello classmates of vet science. hur. i think this is abit too late ar. but i just realised i dont rmb watching any video for submandibular blood collection so i googled it. omg. im scared out of my mind now. prac test in less than 5 hrs time.

omg. jomer pls pass me!!!!

2008-08-10T21:02:00.003+08:00

woots!! yday was damn awesome. hur. didnt actually feel like national day. first half of the day was spent mugging. at this new nice place i just discovered ((: its macs plonked right into a garden/forest. k la, its the drive-thru macs at amk. heh.

night was at kris's hse!! omg. i dunno how come suddenly got 3 maids but they really whipped up a storm of food arh. so much meats pls. and and and the rice... k just imagine this big wok with chicken and seafood, covered with mussels and oysters? like fish&co but 10 times bigger. literally. jess baked us cupcakes too!! with our initials on it. and they kept trying to spell words with it, so anne was in everything cuz she's a vowel. lol! pics on FB.

anyways, after a few rounds of guitar-hero [the girls were actually singing to the rock songs -.- hahah], we started on wii!!! zomg. tt has to be the best thing invented. its like a girl version xbox pls!! hur. anne and i played boxing. i won!! hur. we were just spamming the punches and laughing most of the time. then, played rayman. so awesome la the spastic rabbits. hahah. and kong damn zai la. like who else do u know owns 4 wii consoles. 4 leh!!

anyways, happy birthday liver!!!! you is the bestest dirty joke/story teller. hur. budden i always understand your jokes, which isnt smtg very good. lol. von loves childhood buddy ((:

hokay. dowan go aussie alrdy. i'll miss log.

2008-08-08T23:23:00.002+08:00

today was a disappointment. had lab, which jomer took cause he's back from canada. i cant believe i passed up post-lab with blanks. it was so horribly done. and the second post-lab, i put the same answer for all ten qns. no kidding. argh. jomer laughed it off tho. buck up von!!! exams are like in friggin few weeks time.

wanted to go mug after tt. so i aimlessly took a bus, all the time not deciding if i shld go marina square. i did in the end. den went to check out library@esplanade. i swear, its my dream library ar. all things artsy i love. which is gramatically wrong but i dont really give a damn. den went bishan to meet gf to mug even more.

anyways, during the day, i met paul. told me UWA didnt reply. which was why the whole day i was like, urgh... i cant believe they didnt even have the decency to reply tt they dont want to accept students. whats even more disappointing actually, is the selfish thot of not having 3 mths of 'me' time. not getting away from everything to refresh myself. im damn tired. sometimes, im so tired, im literally an introvert. i just wanna be alone.

sigh. now i can only hope i get a decent sip locally. and paul wanted me to do in-house project with yee mon!! fuck off arh!! i bloody hell wont do it!! anything but that.

but it wont be tt bad right? i get to stay? prepare properly for my sister's wed? get to help out prog? still see loggers? not tt bad? right??

2008-08-07T23:11:00.001+08:00

if you want to fa la la la la with me
then let's go, let's go
dont be another one, just like the other one
if you want to fa la la la la la with me
then go, oh no
i aint gonna wait cause im doing it fine on my own

-jack and rai

2008-07-30T16:38:00.003+08:00

ahhhhhhhh!! in love! in love! in love! ((:

with a boy!! hurhur. or rather his guitar playing lah -.- click here! girlfriend joany found this thing called fingerstyle guitar. so cool leh. its like u can hear the background chords, solo part, sometimes bass, and the zam zam drumming part. lol! tt one's a small korean boy btw.

here's another one!! click! this one more unique.i prefer his playing. actually i havent even heard of the songs he play before. but with playing like this, do u really need to? heh.

omg. my assessed interview has been brought forward to tml!! -.- i just finished 2 ~~quizzes~~ graded tutorial [or whatever u wanna call it] today la pls. no break one leh. sigh. but then, must gain momentum alrdy. k von. go go go!! listen to more fingerstyle guitaring!! give youself a photographic assignment on notes!! read screwtape letters during study breaks!! wooooo... ...

2008-07-30T00:30:00.002+08:00

woots!!!! retail therapy today with sherry was shiok to the max. heh! i think it did her more good than it did me. she'll know lah huh.

so i bought thousand and one things, including pencil skirt for interview [loves lah], shoes for 5 bucks [fits me damn well, bunions and all], screwtape letters!! [like finally], angel's present, muji disposable cam, and a dress to wear to school. heh. satisfying pls.

had exco 0708 dinner at fish and co. sigh. i is miss them alot alot. the usual nonsense la them. hur. i think 10 yrs down the road, we'll still be having exco 0708 dinners. lol. anyways, we slacked til quite late at macs.

actually, it was relatively early. but i say late cuz i almost died on my way home pls. okay, exaggeration. so here's what happened. took 72 from interchange den switch to 25. i was sitting beside the door, so when the bus reached my stop, i was still clutching my notes so i thot aiya, let everyone go down first. den this big bunch of malay guys came down from upstairs. it was obviously their stop la, but one of them sat down beside me, and i swear ah, he peered over my shoulder to look at my notes. like his face damn close all. funny thing is, almost instantaneously, i grabbed my stuff and swung myself down the bus. hahah. den omg, they were still calling behind me, and talking in malay, prolly abt how fast i was. lol. was practically running in my click-clack heels. anyways, they were still shouting upstairs when i reached my door -.- tt was freaky. see, these are the pple mommy warned abt. and i keep telling her dont have some more. phew. thank god, literally.

k, off to mug ahdis and bpharm. yea, i shldnt be here!! just hadta blog abt my awesome shopping today. hur. and to inform log tt i have my book!! so i can do book sharing this week alrdy ((:

2008-07-27T21:56:00.004+08:00

hur. hokay. here they are!! credits goes to tatyi, gideon and i. and tomu for video-ing. ((:

okay. after today is full swing ahead for exams!! wish me luck!!

2008-07-26T22:57:00.003+08:00

zomg. i is damn shacked arh! just finished doing up the subcomm lounge duty roster. miraculously done eh! after last night. hur.

went to help out at DSC's subcomm camp with gideon and tat. go be medics. hurhur. we go do nonsense only lah. hahah.

medics oei
mehhhh
medics oei
dix
medics oei
mehhhh-dix

rofl. laugh like mad. den cuz we had a wheelchair with us, so tomu helped 3 of us film spoofed prof X. hahahah. its freaking funny i swear!! i must rmb to go get the vid. hur. den helped to tie up Proga FAs with hakim. and the stupid hakim kept slapping melvin. hur. they were 'blindfolded' by masking tape, and we sneaked up on them. den hakim suddenly slap him. hahah! he didnt even know what hit him pls. and we ran off laughing. poor dear. hurhur.

ohyea, speaking abt melvin, my Diana+ is coming soon!!!! -beams- finally. after the stupid delays on lomography's side. heh. orh, melvin has the edelweiss edition. the one which i initially wanted but decided against due to the increasing size of the hole in my bank. sigh. its damn nice in white arh.

so after tt, we left for kim's very random chalet. most of the BSC pple were leaving alrdy when we reached. tried to continue doing up roster with the very limited wireless connection, gave up after awhile. told stupid jokes, bitched a bit more. no, i didnt get drunk. actually, absolut blackcurrant's not bad with sprite. but ecks, absolut is absolutely low class vodka pls. pple, start getting grey goose or belvedere. grey goose is french! heh. and goes down your throat more smoothly. anyways, thank goodness for jack daniel's last night.

yea, so within the last few days, finished the bloody quizzes, of which i dont even know if i'll pass. caught the dark knight with classmates. y'know, i think pple watch not cuz its damn good, i mean it is good lah. but i think pple watch cuz its heath ledger's last movie. its a bit sad whenever u see his face on screen. and u remind yourself whenever u see the psychotic joker, tt he got so imersed in his role, tt he overdose on drugs meant to keep him sane. or at least, tt's my reason to watch lah.

so i came home this morning. half-slpt the day away. and when i wasnt slping, i was doing up the darn roster. okay, i love my job. i really do. but right now, i need slp. and after slp, i need need need time to mug. as in seriously sit down to start mugging. last semester of actual studying. cant afford to just let it go.

k. peace out yall.
((:

2008-07-15T20:18:00.002+08:00

hokay. so today i was going to go buy my screwtape letters from kino. and they didnt have the individual copy! drats! they had the collection of writings by c.s.lewis going for $40+ tho, which on retrospect i shld have bought. cuz after tt, rmbering tt i saw the individual copy at borders, headed there to find tt it costs $40+!! same as the collection of writings!! and not in the very best condition either. ecks. in conclusion, kino is better. thankyew.

anyways, ended up getting another book which has got ntg to do with religion. [from kino obviously] die. no book review for log. tsktsk. compulsive shopping some more. went off to mug at the bestest mugging place ever, cartel. i was so sleepy please. stupid internal clock hasnt quite adjusted itself yet since subcomm camp. i know!! tt was like so long ago!! ohwells.

browsing thru FB [facebook, not fashion bar] and found another event! heh. konnichiWOAH! ((: photography exhibition by 24 VSC students from TP. i is wanna go leh. actually, everybody shld go. hur. and seriously, FB is evil. wasting my time awayyyy... noooo...

log on to FB first. den click here to go see this damn nice pic which i think owns the rest.

2008-07-13T16:06:00.003+08:00

came home from subcomm camp last night. was alright. actually, dont feel like blogging abt subcomm camp. here's whats inside my head.

moving on now.

session by swee today!! so funny, cuz swee was doing p&w. den he wanted to prompt us to sing chorus again. and the line was 'when the night seems so long'. but then, he said 'when the night seems so young' hahahahah!! yes, everybody started laughing. lol!

stupid david cook song stuck in my head. yes! the always be my baby one! first, the john seah put on repeat mode and blasted the speakers in lounge. still print lyrics all. then today, the oliver lee cannot stop playing it on guitar. and when he doesnt play it on guitar, he sings/hums -.-

many thousands of quizzes this week. can i just re-take this sem already )): not motivated to study leh. not good at all. hmpf.

log's doing book reading this month. so im off to get my screwtape letters soon. its this book by c.s. lewis abt a devil uncle writing to his devil nephew. classified under literature leh. dunno hard to interpret anot. hur.

when the night seems so long [throw your hands to the sky]
you can sing a new song [wipe the tears from your eyes]
when you're weak, He is strong
He can heal your wounded soul
and calm the storm inside

2008-07-13T15:48:00.003+08:00

i missed log outing. again. this is frustrating. i told myself not to let it happen again. but really, it always cant be helped. and it feels even worst when they say its okay, there'll always be a next time, go and do what you have to do, we're always here.

~~fuck.~~
i hate this.

2008-07-09T00:00:00.001+08:00

liver's coming back today. liver's coming back today. liver's coming back today.
liver's coming back today. liver's coming back today. liver's coming back today.
liver's coming back today. liver's coming back today. liver's coming back today.
liver's coming back today. liver's coming back today. liver's coming back today.

-relieved-

2008-07-06T23:40:00.002+08:00

von suspcts she had food poisoning this morning )): boo... couldnt even get up for 9am. so in the end had to miss session to go 10.45 mass instead.

kong: dont worry you will get well within... ... [thinks to himself; prolly asking god at the same time tt if he prays to give me a reasonable time to get well] ...17hrs
von [ignoring his child-like innocence]: huh?! 17hrs very long leh!
kong chided: i said within 17 hrs. means maybe you will get well in 1 or 2 hrs time.

lol!! hahah. kong always make me laugh. anyways, didnt feel well enough to do anything the whole day! die lah tml. went for val's surprise farewell. somebody stupidly foiled the surprise plan. spoiler leh. poor ben. hah! and, i saw mitchell falkoff's brother there. uncanny resemblance. hur. his bro cuter lah.

cant wait for liver and swee's return from brunei. on wed and thu. yay!!!! i is misses them alot alot leh. sigh.

k, tml wear sjc uniform go school. lol! i hope no one stares at me.

2008-07-05T22:25:00.003+08:00

listening to: Like A Star by corrine bailey rae

yday on the bus i told brandon that im going to meet my gf after meeting tml. and the lady sitting on my other side turned and looked at me. i think she thinks im a lesbian. lol! ohwells. IJ girls always get mistaken eh?

yes i met gen today to go to the prolateriate poetry factory at the substation. [dictionary.com spells it as prolatariate] you give them a word or phrase and they churn out a poem inspired by the word. then you pay any amount you want ((: so awesome lah. its funny how they make it so personal, like it speaks to you. and yet so general, that anyone can understand and relate to it.

gen was so kuku today please!! hahah! cant stand la. where do babies come from indeed?! sheesh gf. sorry readers, censored story behind it. lol.

gen decides to buy a pencilbox and stickers for her bf.
von points to some press-press stickers and starts raving abt the awesome stickers from Xcessories.
gen: yea! i like press-press stickers too!!! but what if he dont like arh?

lol! cuteness lah you!

anyways AGM yday. the dsc pres got diana+ edelweiss edition leh!! got it from HK at 75 ): ah nvm la. mine's prolly hovering above the pacific ocean, on its way to mommy... heh. so after that, went fashionbar with SU and BSC pple. made frens with roy. yay! he can teach me how to use 120mm film cuz apparently he had so much trouble with it, brandon and i keep laughing at the way he complains. lol!

left FB early. but mum found out anyway. i swear i wasnt drunk. maybe my face too red. ohwells. she kept bugging me whole morning.
mum: can you promise me you wont go drink again anot?!
von: i can promise i'll tell you who im gg with?

hur. von is being a difficult daughter lah. hmmm, besides the usual stuff, i got offered UWA for internship!! it wasnt even my first choice y'know. but this is good. cuz UWA more recognized. and i get to do my major project over there so it doesnt look bad on my transcript. k, now must think of finances. ideas anyone? ohyea, and make BMS and aussie frens. yes, to those who know, i wont bitch anymore la. feel evil alrdy.

ps. poem below. enjoi. ((:

2008-07-05T22:15:00.003+08:00

Did they come in peace?
______Is a frequent question put forth

___over the course of a solar life time

_________did the journey take

________who knows what they expected
____________to find on arrival on this little blue orb

__________three orbits out

__________~~fro~~ from lifegiving light
_______Were their hearts hardened by the chill of the void?

_____(like when i wake without you in the night)

___________Or ~~were their~~ did their hermetically sealed

________________~~hearts~~ environments cocoon them from the

__________vacuum and the radiation
_______________in the same way your being has kept mine?

The Prolateriate Poetry Factory.

2008-06-30T23:21:00.002+08:00

weeee... today is perfect day (: 'cept for saprn lec. but nvm that. cuz i met caleb, lingwei, brandon, zihui, elene, her cousin and eric for lunch at sugarloaf. heh. adeline was on duty. yay!!!! havent seen her for awhile now.

anyways caleb was being retarded as usual. and there wasnt enough to eat at sugarloaf so we ended up eating more at mensa. lol!! lab after tt was alright. i think jomer is only himself, cranky and all, in our class. other class seem to have it different with him. hahah! tt's not a bad thing lah. he damn nice to disturb.

after tt went back to lounge to meet the rest for dinner. elene and her cousin, eric, brandon, lingwei, edwin and hakim. were at long john's and discussing abt ear lobes. lol!! yes, tt was blardy random. anyways, i finally bought a norah jones cd!!! ((: its the chinese version kind. they even have translated lyrics k! hahah. budden norah jones is jazz. i love!!

too bad 'dont know why' and 'come away with me' not included )):

so anyways after tt, lw fetched me home. she's one crazy driver i tell you. hahah! we blasted trance music and drove behind a traffic police. she almost hit the bike at the traffic light lah. lol!

and my perfect day ended with mass convo with brandon, john, chris and tat. hahah. they is freaking retarded pls. make me laugh like madddd.

k, gonna post my comment to order my diana -grins- den off to swim and thread tml!! toodles world.

2008-06-28T20:21:00.004+08:00

this is blardy painful. to have to go thru prog stuff to get ideas for subcomm camp. elene just sent me some more games which came from clifton. and i have my own stash of files. opened the stupid pyramid mass game that was suppose to be final clash wet weather. and i see the sample picture drawn on an air force notebook. gahhhh.

sorry elene, didnt mean to put you thru this.

2008-06-28T00:16:00.000+08:00

hokay. i is buay tahan. super tired. i need a break. i dowan to do anything for the weekend pls. which is so not possible. argh. blardy bpharm. and saprn. that's surgical and anesthetic principles for you. i havent told my parents yet, but i got back my sucky term test results. argh. help lah. i dont understand leh. i studied. and! i dont do below average pls! i dont even do average!! gahhhh!!

hokay, on a happy note, i bought stickers today!!!! its damn cute leh!!!! the can press press kind that nise is not scared of. and the picture like poey draw one! bwahahah! that time in stoner's room on the whiteboard, he drew a whole zoo. yea that kind. with the stupid jagged lion's teeth. hahah. okay, you need to see it to know what im saying. its so funny and amusing, the moment i picked it up i started laughing. lol. right in the shop okay. yes okay this is all very random, but im just trying to make my happy paragraph longer than my ranting paragraph.

so you see, im actually having a very nice life. hur. until i get the blardy results sorted out and start managing my time well that is. hokay i suppose to find someone to go session with me this week. anybody up for taize?

2008-06-20T00:39:00.003+08:00

so i went back to school today for bpharmacology proj meeting. which resulted in work being delegated -.- den joan called to ask what time to visit carmen, and i ended up cabbing to cine just to catch a movie with the log girls. and jon. hahah! pimp! watched 'dont mess with the zohan' which was pretty retarded. some pple cant take tt kind of show but its totally what i'll pay to watch. hur. and anyways, its the last log outing before i get busy with school and SU again. sigh.

so after tt, joan and i headed to gleneagles to surprise carmen ((: shayenne so cute lah. dunno how to spell la but damn kawaii leh. kept hicupping all the time. heh. she's moving to serangoon soon so damn convienient for me to go see her.

after tt, went to meet the rest again for dinner at thai express. this time plus swee and poey. they got thursday night out?? erm, yea. dunno lah. hur. just damn glad to see them. and poey told me not to worry cuz he wont be going to brunei cuz he's the sai kang of air wing. only pilots go. sigh. and swee wont be back on sunday cuz he got confined [live firing] that bozo!! but not like i'll be ard also ):

hokay. school's starting next week. better prepare for another rough term ahead.

matthew 13:44-46

2008-06-18T11:14:00.006+08:00

so i've been away during the weekend. went off to do con camp!!!! omg. was amazing!!!! -starts singing 'amazing love... how can it be...'- heh.

anyways, was in music with nutcase, nise, jason, tim tan, michelle [who is tim's sis] and my own dearest jie jie. so every prac u can hear both tim and i going jie here, jie there. hurhur. nise was my personal guitarist. woots nise you rock. i mean literally cuz she brought her electric rock guitar, the one with the pedal tt makes the sound go 'wao... wao...' heh. and both of us so spastic in camp. lol.

for example: nise stones and is lost in outer space. von waves her hand in front of nise 'nise?' nise jumps back to reality 'oh sorry! i imagining myself being a drummer' both burst out laughing!!

hahahahha. not forgetting her uncomprehendable fear of stickers. ohmann. i really wanna put up pics but shaun andy uploaded 11 albums on FB and our pics are like one in a million. the rest all of facils and confirmants. bahhhh. musicians like programmers liddat. only appear when needed. hur.

here're the pics anyway lah. more on FB.

log + stoners
the facils
warm fuzzies!! musician warm fuzzies are damn high tech. thru sms one.
parents
confirmantsuncle mike. awww...washing of feet

video!!!!

brought to you by 'MIDNIGHT productions' lol

cuz they did the whole video within one night! and omg, i did video before, during make a wish. they is damn zai lah. praise god.

cant seem to find the group picture anywhere )): shall go hunt again. anyways, i've been tasked to go buy guestbook for AGM. off i go now. swee, so cute just now. he msged asking when school term starts. and i told him this monday den asked why. he said, that means he'll be seeing less of me )): soon la huh? i wont be gone forever.

2008-06-13T01:31:00.002+08:00

had a really rude shock this morning.
thot it was a prank.
was numb at first.
den thruout the day.
very slowly.
and painfully.
reality sets in.
im not the only one who's badly affected by it.
dont know anyone whom so many pple would grieve for as they try to get on with their lives.

still rmb when i was in yr1. you were social head. and the only exco who seriously talked to me and considered with me my future in SU and in programme. and in yr2, when i stepped up to become prog head, i knew the 3 of us always had your support. you and pam would often meet us to plan training for the proggers. and i rmbed when u rushed down to prog chalet, stayed thruout the night just to help us. you'll be dearly missed. everytime i think of you now, i always picture you smiling or laughing. and i know you'ld want us to do the same as well. this is for the family and loved ones who feel the same pain.

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

2008-06-07T23:31:00.002+08:00

sex and the city was awesome!! ((:

so funny cuz every scene is like a re-enactment of the 5 of us lah. hurhur. so as any dope could have guessed, no we didnt go sentosa in the end ): but we did chill at corduroy cafe. heh. pretty comfy place.

and i finally bought the organizer from amk hub. omg! 20+ bucks k! but damn nice pls. got monthly and weekly planner. and got random pages of spastic drawings. and the theme of the whole book is some music. so got diff genres of music like jazz! and rock and classical on diff pages. i love! -beams-

hokay so im like going thru my extensive files of songs to help choose songs to play on my sister's wedding. keep choosing all those from the 80's. heh. like those by bread. yes, there is a band called bread. lol. mian bao. mann, i love the 80's.

k. off to xander's first month tml!! toodles love.

2008-06-05T22:43:00.002+08:00

a woman is the prettiest on the day of her wedding
especially if its my sister
((:

okay...
so its just ROM. she'll look even better in church. heh. on the day of wedding leh. not day of registering. hur. omg omg. cant wait!

but cant say i want tt day to come either. tho its just 2 storeys above, im gonna miss irritating her out of bed, or chiong-ing to the toilet before her, or always using the com when she taking 5min break, or dumping her laundry on the bed [muahah!] or or or omg!! i cant borrow her clothes any more!!!!

ecks. hmmm, nvm lah. i still get to cab with her to church. and if i forgot my hse keys, at least got place to go.

die lah!! surgical anaesthetics tml!! havent mug finish!! gahhhh. must wake up at some ungodly hour again. chiong finish all topics den go straight to school -.-

which also means i gotta go now
woots lah. today i borrow phone from joan, today can collect my own phone -.-
seriously...

2008-06-05T12:24:00.000+08:00

check this out!
biblical theme park

2008-06-05T00:43:00.002+08:00

yay!

caleb sending new hillsong album! (:

k, i swear im so lousy without a phone. sent my failure-to-boot nokia 5610 to repair and im like stuck everyday without alarm clock, cant put reminders, cant read my msges, cant call anyone. and today sherry and alicia like stood me up at the airport lah! suppose to go study but they prolly had a change of plans and i have no phoneeee!!!! rawr!!!! i dont even know what happened until now -.-

nvm lah. 5 solid hours of mugging. beat that! 5 hours STRAIGHT arh!

sister's ROM tml (: heh. exciting leh. i hope it doesnt rain. omg. i cant wait for the weekend! end of term test. first exco 0809 meeting. dinner with ex comm. sentosa with the girls on saturday. some how i think shld have alternative plan. sucky weather these few days leh.

k. gotta go rest my hand. seriously arh, just now after i finished my notes right, my writing hand cramped. as in really cannot move at all, until i got quite scared. its alright now lah.

sigh. which also means i can write for the paper on friday. eeyerh.

ps. the new hillsong album is awesome! ((:

2008-06-03T22:13:00.003+08:00

hokay. goodmorning world. time now is 10.18PM!!

start mugging von. anyways, whole lot of stuff has happened. new comm has been elected!! pls refer below to list of pple:

brandon
tatyi
john
kahyuen
edwin
claudine
geraldine
gideon
ella
chris
emilla
von!!
zain

im damn stone and emotionless right now. my dad just dropped a bomb on me. here's the gist of the story:

sister says okay to osip
dad says okay to osip
mom [finally] says okay to osip
dad asks to reconsider cuz finances abit tight

so now, stone from the nap i just woke up from. emotionless from not knowing what to feel.

angry?
no. not really.

guilty?
half.

disappointed?
maybe.

but then von never takes no for an answer. and so within the last few hours, i've alrdy conjured plans to raise funds. dunno if my dad will let me tho. sigh. conservative pple dont really believe the generosity of friends and determination of a 'lil girl' will land someone in osip

hopeful?
definately.

2008-05-27T18:49:00.005+08:00

bwahah! my daddy so cute this morning. he was driving me to school when he saw my chroma de runway bag of sweets. so i erm havent really told my parents im running for elections, again. but they saw the board and posters around so yea. hahah.

so he asked: buy so much sweets for what? waste money ar?
von: huh. no lah. its for me to bribe pple for votes. heh. -sheepish smile-
dad: come come give one here [in a slightly annoyed manner]

lol. fathers dont crave for sweets early in the morning do they? hurhur. oh yea...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GLENN SANDHU!!!!
hope you had a ~~good~~ great day ((:

2008-05-26T22:28:00.004+08:00

yay. koped all these from giddy's blog. all in random order except mine. heh. gave up trying to position them properly lah. gahhhh.

oh yea, all those from design school, PLEASE VOTE FOR CHRYSTAL, AMOS AND ISSAC. cuz they are nice pple who helped me do last minute poster thruout the weekend!! okay lah, more of chrystal. heh. and i super like the roco roco lookalike thingies ((:

can you imagine what they can do for DSC -beams-

hokay. here it is.

2008-05-23T22:19:00.004+08:00

nv thot i'll get pass the 3 hrs of blardy LAST lab. so yes, i collected blood from the mouse tail and submandibular!! yay. no more running away. its funny how smtg so unrelated can give me so much strength.

joan came to school to meet me today ((: and i took her around TP. heh. to go see everyone's elections posters. lol. woots. showed her everywhere, and i think i was bragging abt TP too much. hahah. eh cant help it lah. love school too much.

today damn kuku ar. we went ikea and giant to buy LOG room stuff. super bimbos leh we two. rofl. first, at ikea, we wanted to push the trolley into the lift. den my dear gf rammed the thing against the metal lift and everyone in the lift stared at us. hahah!!

den at giant. again smtg to do with trolleys. joan passed me loose coins to change for the $1 coin for the trolley. den while we were on the travellator, i dropped a 10 cent. which fell into the groove of the travellator and rolled downwards. lol!! and everyone behind us was looking at their feet/stepping away/trying to stop the coin rolling further. hahahah!! omg lah. so paisei. both of us laugh until stomach ache.

anyways, for those who dont alrdy know,
VON IS RUNNING FOR TPSU!!
pls vote for yvonne at cyber centre from 27-29 May

this is me. on the left. hur.

yea, my picture in the voting system got my fringe all down my forehead. so this is the nicest, closest equivalent (:

i want this enough. i want this badly.

2008-05-18T00:30:00.001+08:00

never will 13 be the same again

2008-05-15T23:31:00.002+08:00

dont cry because its over
laugh because it happened

something i koped from chrystal:

Do you have something to say?
Maybe that's why you keep callin', callin' me
Maybe you are too afraid
And that is why you keep stallin', stallin because

You know there's something here that matters
So baby tell me so I can make things better
So you know that..

**Nothing's important right now besides something beautiful laying face down
Bury your eyes deep in the pillows of wanting more than something that's capable
Nothing's important right now besides someone suitable being left out
Bury our bodies so deep in the sheets of wanting more than we really need

Break it down

Will you just give us a shot?
And before you discard our progress
And I know it's asking a lot but seeing you was a promise
And I'm confident on how my heart decides

Till you decided to go and change your mind
And say that I can't spend the night
Cause you don't want to offend someone else you're dating

Uh, come on (Nothing's important right now)

Waiting on a heartbeat
That you've stolen from me
Waiting on a heartbeat
That's making me feel empty

can anyone really love young by the higher

2008-05-03T00:12:00.002+08:00

adapted from elene's blog

alice was travelling along a footpath when the pathway divided and formed two separate roads for her to choose. she didnt know which path to take. then, the cheshire cat appeared and she asked the cat
'can you help me? which path shld i take?'
the cat questioned
'well, where do you wanna go?'
alice said
'hmmm, i dont know'
and the cat replied
'if you dont know where you wanna go, it doesnt matter which path you take does it?'

hokay. i do know where i wanna go. it just seem apt to post this. hur. what if i wanna be in two places at one time arh? heh. ohwells.

eh, my mom watches project runway!! hahahahahahhahaah. i know, damn bad. she watch the same episode twice some more. lol. its the second last challenge where the top 3 will be chosen to go for fashion week. and christian won the challenge. i predict he wins ((: i cant even rmb the names of the other pple lah. and i predicted correctly the previous season. yay. so go christian!! he kinda reminds me of aaron from ADM leh. hur.

back from ger's bday. heh. crys and i made beehoon popiah cuz we dont eat mang kuang [erm, its turnip lah but im used to calling it mang kuang] its damn nice!! next bbq or subcomm dinner must have pls. anyways, off to mug with gen tml. nice breakfast at cartel first ((: den full day of mugging. okay, maybe not full since we're intending to go shop. heh. i wanna cut bangs too!!

yay!! den more movies to watch!! cuz we were at poey's hse yday watching devil wears prada. and i kope 4 more to watch at home. bwahah!! byebye evil video ezy. hello poey and library. more tim burton!!!! woots. tim burton rocks serious.

hokay. i is going to sleep now. been waking up in the middle of the night these few days. maybe tt explains the dizzy spells in the day -shrugs- i actually skipped csas -.-

2008-05-01T21:30:00.002+08:00

omg. am i pissed or what lah. not at anyone or at anything in particular actually. its just that the whole world is asking the same question: so are you running? so how? are you? class. SU. log. parents. and i dont have the answer. y'know sometimes i think so hard that my head literally hurts.

you know whats the worst thing? the worst thing is that i cant find a single frikin person who can stand in my shoes and look from all angles and tell me what they think. school pple definately dont know much abt church groups. and church pple know less than nuts abt SU. and parents...ohmy. lets not start. they just want me to stay home 24/7 and mug so i can go uni. and it doesnt help that i just calculated my gpa. even scoring all As for the whole of this yr [that's 2 sems btw] wont get me into a uni. ~~fuck.~~

somebody help.

2008-04-29T23:13:00.003+08:00

ow! i bumped my knee while trying to answer my phone cuz my parents are sleeping. so pain -whines- just came back from FO main comm dinner. rawr. durian puffs are evil. and omg, we played zhou ji mi ma. hurhur. always kena the same pple. damn fun lah. sigh. its gonna end soon aint it?

suppose to go crash venos chalet. actually not crash lah. heh. programmers are invited!! woots. budden nv go. cuz my mum keep complaining abt how my dad nags abt how i keep coming home late. walao. if you havent met my dad, you havent met any male who has nagged so much in his life. den still complain these few days neighbourhood filled with all the bangladeshi workers cuz got lift upgrading blah blah. and my mum's not pissed with me coming home late. she's pissed with my dad for talking so much. so she makes me come home early -.- how logical.

spoke to my mum tt day about running for elections again. she quite supportive. i think. den damn cute. cuz she said:

'as a leader, you must also pray for your ka kia'

hurhur. damn cute arh. den i think she help me speak to my dad cuz when they came back, they wanted to see FO photos. den i showed them lah. and my dad said:

'yea lah. show us the photos lah. otherwise how we know what you do in school. wah! so many people arh!'

hur. thank goodness for the thousand over photos xh kope from vc. lol. anyways, tt's settled. so erm...yea. met up with joan, mag and abi the other day. abi's due in may!! yay!! the baby confirm have many many godma lah. heh. and and and me is going tanning with gen on thurs!! woots.

rawr. i miss poey )): he's like the only one from log i still msn/msg lah. besides joan tt is. he got into air wing, so he's damn slack now. omg. i miss dinners at coffee bean with swee. and walks home with liver/soo/swee/kong/dan/jason. and and and kong chasing after them cuz we always shout 'kong you're fat!' hurhur. and singing with nise. omg. we wanna record song until where lah? and hugs/drawings of giraffes from jes! who's in spain? or is it barcelona?

dunno whats happening lah. read joan's blog den super emo. i opened my folder and scan thru all the mission trip pictures and what was 3-4 months ago seem like it happened many years ago. all i can think of is kong saying, we'll be at RK, eating prata when we're 30 yrs old. some with our own kids alrdy. and all our kids are playing together. sigh.

where are you guys? )):

2008-04-25T23:59:00.003+08:00

i'll betcha, in the ten thousand years that TPSU existed, there is no one comm tt is more bonded than the current comm.

ohmy. just came home from my last ever meeting for the AY. y'know what we were doing before we left lounge anot. hur. we exchanged all the excos namecards within ourselves [FO main comm], signed and kept all 13 kaes. lol.

i'll never forget our first retreat lah. seems like yday that it happened. and the last retreat at glenn's hse. omg. both times also damn emo. but it was the both times tt brought all 13 of us as close as ever. sure, we dont talk to each other everyday. but there is this sense of unity, especially whenever we facing 'big monsters'. wah. super rebellious together pls. hur.

im not sure what the next comm is gonna be like. and its because of some of you guys that the possibility of running for exco is slowly creeping into my mind again. but i'll nv forget my experience with you other 12 lah. sigh. damn emo now.

on a side note, yes, it is confirmed that i am seriously considering to run again. hurhur. i blogged on LOG blog that im scared of giving up SU. not being able to step into lounge again, not able to do stuff for open hse, tpRawks etc. and the last few days have been spent finding all sorts of things to do once SU is gone from my life. [photography, french, cookie business] hur. yes, my last post was on 'tasklist' for the AY.

and i slowly realise that i am able to forget the monotonous/comfortable way of life. that i am looking forward to new stuff. which is a good thing, because i would nv wanna run elections for fear of giving up 'exco-ship'. its always difficult to run for pure intentions and for the good of SU.

but now that i've gotten over tt fear of giving up exco life, im struggling with things that i have to sacrifice if i do get in -.- my parents just gave the green light for osip yday. and i really do want to ace all my subjects for this sem. my sis is getting married this year as well. alot alot of reasons and contradictions gg thru my head lah.

i'll need to go talk to a few more pple before i decide i guess. but from now on, its serious business alrdy. need to start thinking alot alot.

i hope others running would think abt their decisions seriously and carefully as well. den maybe this AY, we'll get another bonded team of excos!! hokay, im being optimistic here. whoever gets in, gets in lah. but whoever runs shld know what they are running for.

sigh. i'll slp on it for tonight. watch this space. maybe i'll post my posters up here. hurhur.

passion can never be lost
only ignored

2008-04-23T22:25:00.002+08:00

hokay. yday was kuku lah. hurhur. wanted to blog budden was on msn with thousand and one pple. so anyways, while the rest of the world follows the standard calendar...

i tell you, after the first 2 yrs in poly, your mind suddenly shifts time frame or smtg. first week of school just feels like start of the yr. hur. and start of the AY means new beginnings, more resolutions and new stuff to do. woots. exciting lah.

k, must blog so that whoever reads can bug me abt my 'tasklist' and 'wishlist' for the yr ((:

TASKLIST:
-learn photography
-master french [fluently. den can pick hot french guys up from the french school nearby. hur]
OKAY. IM KIDDING.
-set up cookie business
-help with confirmation camp
-possibility of OSIP
~~-possibility of big falling out with parents~~
-watch more theatrical plays
-get involved with social work

WISHLIST:
-shades
-running shoes [nike/pony]
-hand-drawn pumps [nise]
-havaianas [with the diamante]
-eyeliner & rouge [anna sui]
-new set of bikinis
-hair cut!!
-at least one weird toy camera

yay. exciting ~~last~~ year ahead. must get good good grades this sem pls. i've got weird lecturers this sem again. save for dr lim ren. woots lah. i predict he's the next jason chang. too bad we didnt get him again this sem. damn exciting to see the competition arh. hur.

talk of elections are going ard alrdy. yes yes, this is the correct timing tho i must say it came a bit too prematurely last AY, died down and its back on topic now. its madly confusing lah. i have frens who are supporting extreme ends of my decision. of cos i know tt if i really wanted to go all out for it, my disapproving frens would go all out for me also.

still in a dilemma. and like i said, my worried mind will nv rest until next commitee is set.

rawr.

ps. the abrupt ending is due to my distracted mind flying off to some other random window, and thus unable to mend back the broken train of thots i had to rant. nights now.

2008-04-23T00:00:00.002+08:00

oh my. first time we having exco mass convo. hur. retarded pple lah pls.

2008-04-15T23:10:00.002+08:00

take time to realize
that your warmth is
crashing down on in
take time to realize
that i am on your side
didnt i, didnt i tell you

but i cant spell it out for you
no its never gonna be that simple
no i cant spell it out for you

*if you just realize what i just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
and we'll never find another
just realize what i just realized
we'd never have to wonder
if we missed out on each other now*

take time to realize
oh-oh, im on your side
didnt i, didnt i tell you
take time to realize
this all can pass you by
didnt i tell you

but i cant spell it out for you
no its never gonna be that simple
no i cant spell it out for you

**

but its not all the same
no its never the same
if you dont feel it too

if you meet me halfway
if you would meet me halfway
it could be the same for you

**

missed out on each other now
missed out on each other now

realize by colbie caillat

2008-04-13T20:06:00.002+08:00

FO is over. after all the preparations for a good half a year. over in 6 days. its kind of a bittersweet feeling. sometimes the programme work almost kills you. and yet you dont ever want it to be over. its like an addiction. the feeling you get after watching too many episodes of a serial consecutively. den when you reach the final episode, you cherish every minute of whatever happens. and after that, there's a sad emptiness. and yet, happiness that its over.

last project for excos have ended. after week zero, we'll finally finish our term in office. sigh. ohmy. conflicting emotions pls. i know i said at glenn's hse tt i almost confirm wouldnt be running again next year. but tt thot just doesnt seem to leave my head. until the commitee for the next AY is confirmed i guess. aye.

sigh. might go for CHOICE. but the next one in may is all the way in Indonesia -.- and i wanna stay in S'pore pls.

anyways. i found a new fav radio station. under the reccomendation of ling wei. heh. Lush 99.5FM woots lah. i like. alot alot. not your average music la. so if you dont like unusual kinds then too bad. heh.

hokay. need sleep now. time to rest my worried head. toodles.

2008-03-31T01:25:00.002+08:00

omg. the pillowman totally rocks. its this play i just went to catch with the girls at DBS arts centre, by SRT. they did it once in 2007 and are restaging it now due to overwhelming response ((: thank goodness. i did hear abt it tt time but was too busy. and gen went with her lit class so i got no kaki. its a psychological thriller. a tad bit too chim for some la. need to stay awake to understand the whole story kind.

and omg. talking abt keeping awake. i almost dozed off pls. helped out at design otc yday. or shld i say this morning. or wait, since its 1am now, its yday morning. haha. ended at ard 4am and i waited til 6 to take the first bus. reached home at 7 plus this morning and slept for a mere 3 hrs before heading to work!! in my killer heels which is 1 size too big!! -.- hurt like mad the whole day arh. had to keep leaning to relieve pressure off my soles. but im selling it to mag alrdy la. nvm. anyways, i need to practice acting scary leh. hurhur. i dont think i scared anyone badly enough. few more weeks for tt.

hokay. so my 2 week stint is over!!!! ohmann. working when you're me, is a damn bad decision. made 500 bucks when i overspent almost tt amt. sheesh. k, so from tml onwards, full steam ahead for FO and week zero alrdy. i just wished pple would be more willing to full steam ahead with me. sigh. no time no time. chiong TOGETHER la. emphasis suppose to be on together and not chiong.

gahhhh. kk. just lemme slp in for tml please. just one day. den i promise i'll be good and do all my work and whatever shit tt im suppose to do.

2008-03-12T11:59:00.000+08:00

your bitter goodbye is
ringing through this quiet night
this idle hour just wont pass
i've never missed you this much
never thought i would
didnt think you'ld feel so far away

your summer perfume is still
blowing through this hallway
autumn's amber red shadows dance
i miss our midnight rides on highway eighteen
eighteen is gone

and so
go pass the lights and all the excuses
you could have left 'sincerely yours'
dont you think its obvious that i want to say more

anything too daring to say to you
will be said in this letter
and burnt away
so you never
realise
im here

im thinking of your vague reply
so i can understand
why we put this at rest
why we forget to
say that we were leaving
say that we were sorry
the past remains unspoken
as this vacant night is dying

but i still miss your summer perfume
this cold air brings in such a distance to us
such a painful distance

and im still waiting for you to say
you hate me now
so i dont have to
hold on to this burning heart
this burning heart is getting old
is getting old

and while sitting on this cold kitchen floor
head down to hide the tears
i realised
i finally realised
that you were never

midnight highway - daphne loves derby

2008-03-10T23:49:00.002+08:00

what am i sacrificing for really?

2008-03-08T23:26:00.002+08:00

yay! listening to true by spandau ballet which brandon helped download. heh. you've prolly heard it before, just didnt know it.

damn im shacked.

helped amos with his photography assignment yday. now i know why models get paid so much. wasnt very satisfied with the shots leh. budden amos is the photographer there, so yea. hur.

met teri, mag and joan after their a'level results. headed to liquid kitchen and did some catching up. oh mann. i miss them manys please! oh, and cherry brandy is nice. heh.

met gen in the morning to go SMU open hse. exciting pls. its not like tp lah. where u get cheers and all. their school is a proper building mann. anyways, the speakers really made gen and i wanna go there. especially the social sci dean. lol. gen and i were practically stiffling our laughter the whole talk. hurhur. he's humourous and charismatic la.

and and and, on our way out as we got on an escalator, gen was bitching and complaining abt how NUS went to their school but talked ntg abt FASS when half the cohort takes arts -.- quite dumb there. anyways, when we stepped off the escalator, the girl in front of us turned ard and told us she was a student of SMU and tt she can take us to find whatever info we want, cuz she thot gen was complaining abt the open hse. den when gen explained tt we were talking abt NUS she said thank god. lol. so cute la.

anyways, when she wanted to take us to get more info, her whole reaction was like, no no, how can there be no info, SMU is like the best thing tt has ever existed pls. lol. im quite sure she wasnt even a social science student.prolly was what kyle was talking abt - TP being poly-centric. and tt schools shldnt be fighting each other during open hse. TP could really learn some of tt ar.

tt convinced me. i wanna go SMU. thing is, intake for the course im interested in is 130 -.- wth la. must be really lucky or some pure genius to get in. anyways, after tt did shopping with gen. found stuff for dnd. it cost a bomb ar. and, bought more stuff from kino. heh. finally! my french assessment book! hurhur.

von is damn broke. and is working, for the second time in her life. sigh. i told sherry tt if i didnt need the money i wouldnt work. but tt sounds bloody tai tai ar. actually, im not tt poor thing la. not broke in the literary sense in the dictionary, but just overspent. gahhhh.

nvm la. retail therapy. which made my back ache. lol. some therapy. after walking for like super long, gen and i just collapsed at coffee bean. hurhur. we were just slouching in the sofa, stoning and pple watching. couldnt even get up to buy a drink. lol.

gen: im so tired. how to go and buy panties.

rofl. omg gen. tt was so crude la. and before tt, she didnt want to go to the toilet. she wanted to go to the xu xu room -.- she talks like tt even to her bf.

i love my gf lah! hurhur. she made my day (((:

2008-03-04T23:34:00.001+08:00

i lost my shopping in the mail!! -whines-

):

2008-02-29T23:59:00.002+08:00

WARNING: SPOILER ALERT!!
be warned. and dont blame me. haha.

hokay. so im back from watching the leap years. really liked the story. makes you go all lovey-dovey, if you're attached, and emo if you're not. haha. i like wallowing in emo-ness. and and and, guess what. i was plesantly surprised when a scene from the movie was shot at SJC!! yay!! in mrs debra tan's lit homeroom some more. got tt lil raised platform [stage?] heh -grins- and had alot of corrine may's songs.

alrightey. after all the praises, comes the complaints. dont read if you dont want to.

the movie was technically quite disappointing. it wasnt in chronological order. means it was flashback scenes which told the whole story. and the funny thing was the 'flashback' scenes were clearer than the 'present' scenes. and omg, qi yuwu cannot slang. sigh. if he was meant to be cheena then he shld have spoken true blue singlish lah. and, i thot they did quite a bad job linking the past and present. joan chen really looks like an older version of li lin, but i guess it takes more than looks. and omg, talking abt looks, the most insulting one: the older version of jeremy is some old ah peck pls! ananda everingham how shuai lah. dont look like him at all arh.

but you know what, whatever it is, i think the faith in love it gives its audience, and the inspiring quotes make it all worth the money lah. haha. eating my own words. ohwells.

if you are not too long,
i will wait for you all my life

2008-02-28T17:56:00.002+08:00

hokay. so the lazy bum is finally awake from the couch potato syndrome. bwahahah! know what, i have no idea what the previous sentence meant. lol. omg. im just relieved exams are over. for a few days alrdy actually. its time for prog to kick into full swing. heh.

that, and a bit of 'me' time (: bake, swim, french, tim burton movies... k la, and erm, maybe god.

did you know in the mv for 'dirty little secrets' by the all-american rejects, one of it said: i miss being close to god

i miss log. just the other night, my mind was wandering aimlessly. and i panicked cuz i forgot oliver's chinese name!! oliver leh!! hurhur. i know, it sounds dumb. and its not just the guys, the girls as well. joan GF, i miss you like crazy. even more than words can say please.

anyways, leap years tml with ppg, japheth, wilson and des!! ((: yay!! cant wait. i like the trailer music leh. i want the soundtrack! talking abt music, brandon-the-kuku just sent me tons of emo stuff. haha. tt boy ar, suicidal leh. and i bought lime this month for the local music cd. pls all go buy now. and i also bought girl meets bossa nova by olivia, this singaporean jazz singer based in japan. so von is a very happy girl with a not so happy savings account. sigh.

alrightey. dinner's ready. mum's screaming.

it is not in the stars to hold our destiny, but in ourselves

2008-02-24T12:25:00.002+08:00

i hope u're doing fine out there without me
cause im not doing so good without you
the things i thought u'ld never know about me
were the things i guess you always understood

so how could i have been so blind for all these years
guess i only see the truth through all this fear
of living without you

and everything i have in this world
and all that i'll ever be
it could all fall down around me
just as long as i have you
right here by me

i can't take another day without you
cause baby i could never make it on my own
i've been waiting so long just to hold you
and to be back in your arms where I belong

sorry i can't always find the words to say
but everything i've ever known gets swept away
inside of your love

and everything i have in this world
and all that i'll ever be
it could all fall down around me
just as long as i have you
right here by me

as the days grow long i see
that time is standing still for me
when u're not here

sorry i can't always find the words to say
everything i've ever known gets swept away
inside of your love

and everything i have in this world
and all that i'll ever be
it could all fall down around me
just as long as i have you
right here by me

here by me - 3 doors down

2008-02-18T15:56:00.003+08:00

im getting old. weak like mad pls. damn. havent been slping well the whole of last week. bloody free-hand lah! hur. nvm, its over nowwww... bwahah!! keep having headaches. gahhhh. terrible ones some more. and i dont get sick easily kind.

k, anyways. acm is over, so can slack abit. i really thot i was gonna fail can. cuz i started studying only yday. ya la. totally forgot tt i had otc refresh on sat, happily thinking at least got two days, can pull thru. von damn smart.

so yday met zach and des to mug. zach went for mass at my church first den we went off to j8 cartel. i swear by that place arh. in your desperate moments, when coffee bean chases you away [grrr] and macs is simply too crowded, you can always go cartel -beams-

omg, those two make me laugh like mad with their retarded sound effects pls. hurhur. talk about normal stuff also can come up with crappy ideas. and its the kind where you visualise in cartoons kind. lol. first zach. cuz i had two sets of notes i can choose to study from; one is word doc and the other ppt. so he asked if i study better with pictures or pure memorizing from words. den he said pictures better, den when the qn come out, can PIAM just rmb the position of the answer on the ppt. LOL.

den des another one. he asked whats the diff between paturition and whelping. den i was trying to explain paturition got many stages and whelping is just... and he completed my sentence, whelping is just BAHM, one short give birth. ROFL. actually, come to think of it now, i think its the same. hahah!

anyways, there was one time we were talking about spirits and stuff. did you know construction workers put marbles between each floor so tt 'they' can play with it, instead of disturbing pple. sometimes at night, can hear marbles being dropped from the floor upstairs. almost everyone hears it la. unless you're living in house. den cuz we studying reproduction right, i mentioned tt during mating, the doe [female rabbit] will try to castrate the buck [male rabbit] and des went like 'huh? really? orh, tt's where the marbles came from la. not ghosts la.' hurhurhurhur. OMG. -exasperated look-

so after 8 hours yday, still havent pia finish. tt's why gotta wake up at 4 this morning, which caused the bloody headache. hmmm. maybe its caffeine. k, gotta chiong mbio now. its jason chang's subject leh! des says it works only for the girls. haha. too right.

2008-02-14T14:13:00.003+08:00

You can fill the darkness
with just one flash of light
Break the silence with just one word
One defiance starts a revolution
One life can save the world

On the steps of Washington
Sprinkled like confetti
Thousands of people sing
“We shall overcome”
The preacher shouts :
“Let freedom ring.”
He gave his life for what he believed

You can be a witness
You can be a prophet
You can make the whole world believe
Break the strongest fortress
Change the way the world thinks
You can build a bridge where
foes can meet
Hope for the future
Shout it, don’t whisper
Dreams are what we make them to be
There is hope in every heartbeat
Tiny as it seems
You’re a beautiful seed

She’s a pastor’s daughter
She’s only 16
But her heart and her belly
are breaking at the seams
Her boyfriend blames her,
he wants to pay
for the doctor to wash it away

As she lays in the hospital,
A Christmas choir is singing
About a child in a manger,
fragile and small
“Unto us is born a Savior”
She looks at her baby and cries
as she sings him a lullaby

You can be a witness
You can be a prophet
You can make the whole world believe
Break the strongest fortress
Change the way the world thinks
You can build a bridge where
foes can meet
Hope for the future
in the tiniest whisper
Dreams are what we make them to be
There is hope in every heartbeat
Tiny as it seems
You’re a beautiful seed

Every hope, every power
lies in the heart of a seed that flowers
Intertwined all across the land
We’re all seeds in the maker’s hands.

Beautiful Seed - Corrine May

2008-02-03T00:35:00.000+08:00

yes yes. im alive. im just [refer to above]...

busy mending broken pieces of the life i had before. emo shit. no lah! lol. im just ~~lazy~~ busy, fullstop.

anyways, back from night out with gary, abby and jiayi. heh. woots pls. we went to watch sweeney todd!! -beams- its this morbid movie abt a revengeful barber who was unjustly imprisoned by some idiotic judge. super gory. yay! haha. oh mann, tim burton is my idol lah. ya ya, 'whatever!' all you johnny depp fans. oh, and did i mention it's a musical. johnny depp sings well pls. but the idea of a dark musical just seems weird. i like. heh. pls go catch it. on a weekday, and dont pay 10 bucks like me!! im so pissed cathay raised the prices. ecks. its M18 btw. ya, kena check my ic -.-

company was awesome. ugly girl just keep wanting to kill pple only. and we were all so fussy during dinner, what food, where to go etc. bwahah! den on our way home, abby, jiayi and i were walking tgt when the guy in front of us dropped his coins into the drain! it didnt even clink on the grill, it just went straight down. haha. omg, damn funny. cuz he like just kept on walking nonchalently, while i went 'oops' and abby went 'oh, so sad' and jiayi couldnt stop laughing cuz of our comments. lol. and the funniest thing was it was only like some 30 cents. rofl.

hokay, the songs from the musical-movie are still in my head! actually, tt's cuz i watched it twice. heh. streamed it from youtube budden cuz it was illegal, it kinda got deleted halfway thru so i was left stuck knowing half of the movie -.- i hope they sell the soundtrack. haha. i mean, who wants to buy soundtracks of a morbid movie.

i need new shoes!! the shoes i just bought got no friction at all!! made me fall 3 times. like jesus leh. haha. actually, it was a slip la. still, 3 times!! gahhhh.

k, gotta chiong blardy acm proj tml.
submissions, prac tests, term tests, sem exams, here i come!!

2008-01-22T00:22:00.000+08:00

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small

Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they'll soon discover
That I don't belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them

*Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation's open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade*

Is there anyone who's been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who's traded
In the altar for a stage

The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay

Stained Glass Masquerade by Casting Crowns

2008-01-20T22:49:00.000+08:00

finally watched a movie yday, after like 10 million gazillion years. everyone shld go watch 27 dresses. heh. or actually, all the girls in the world shld go watch. its a abt this girl who's always, always, always a bridesmaid [27 times!]. den obviously in the end, she's the bride lah.

i havent dazed in the after-effects of a chick flick/romance movie for a darn long time pls.

oh mann. von misses the guys. gahhhh. i sound despo. but i really miss them!!!! )):

nvm. they're coming back on sunday! (:
had short session today before mark goes off to join the ranks of NS men. sigh. went to thai express. and the waiter damn funny. k la, i tried to order in thai first. lol. anyways, when he was clearing the plates, he dropped the cutleries. ya i know damn noob. den after tt we all tried to help him right, he kept saying thank you. hurhur. cute-ness la.

yay!! i bought a bossa nova cd!! think hotel lounge music. a bit like jazz but different. my mom and aunt hates it. they say make them sleepy -.- ohwells. i love.

k, off to free-hand drawings. omg, i dowan to delay again!! stupid assignments

2008-01-15T22:15:00.000+08:00

hokay. im finally in the mood to wait patiently ~~without banging the keyboard~~ to post mission trip photos. heh. and dan just sent me xmas photos. lol.

soo-dad, nise and i with kid
liver and soo, with wrestling kids
soo-bro; look like soo's twin eh?
aunty linda - liver's mom
the kids at Pattaya Orphanage

joany and ai
poey and ai
yay-ness. my drawing got displayed (:
nise, an, anne, me, pleng, top part of head of ai
joan, chan
saying goodbyes from inside of our lao pok bus

black truck!

von [sits on the ledge]: eh, what if i fall over arh?

soo-bro: orh, den you become fall out boy

-.-

other retarded stuff soo-bro said: [while dishing out fish maw soup] you want maw/more?

-.-

white truck!

dammit

bwahah! revenge!

LOG GOES TO

LORENZO HOME

~~drinking~~ supper along the corridor

did i mention tt poey and sim streaked half-naked along the hallway? lol. they dared each other so loudly in the toilet, the rest of us were hiding in our rooms with the doors open so we could see them when they ran across. rofl. and before that we locked their room doors so they were left outside the corridor, half-naked. lol. omg. damn funny.

jumpshot without anne & vonnie )):

jes, joan, me

and omg, swee

God

gahhh. nicer pictures with soo-dad and streaking video with jon.

email from jess!!

hello girls+mark+jon (:

anywaay i got messages from the guys to pass on so here it goes.

swee: tell everyone that they are really really REALLY missed. (oh and he says that he keeps swearing in his head)
justin k: he's doing okay, but he cant do ippt cos of his back. and he still tries to pray (:
justin sim: that army's fine but he felt quite sad and empty ystd cos he cldnt attend mass. but otherwise hes coping well. and he asks for our continuous prayers as the days get tougher
melvin: hes dying of boredom and since swee's in his company, they can die tgtr. haha and that it didnt feel like a sunday
oliver and poey : army's tough but theyre surviving but they need to stop swearing!
soo: is very proud that he hasnt swore, otherwise company is quite slack.

hokay. back to real post. i delayed submission for free-hand drawing. again.

that was the highlight of the day, can you imagine.

k, nights.

2008-01-13T01:01:00.001+08:00

this is damn funny. koped this from liver's blog.

k, not funny already. think i'll really feel the pinch when i go to church tml to find only all the girls. i damn emo now ): like xiuxiu. her bro also go in NS. lol. two weeks pls fly past quick!

anyways. omg, i got warning letter. wth la. its the stupid tut i missed on the first day of school pls. the day i landed in singapore at 3am -.- ya, penalise me on that. well done. gahhhh.

open hse is over. was expecting a bigger bigger crowd but ohwells. SP and NP lah. bozos. put same day as us den obviously your attendance would drop as well right. but den again, maybe its just the ageing population. lesser younger pple as the years go by. haha. k la, subcomms were rather good. improving by leaps and bounds day by day.

i cant make up my mind. its too confusing.
it feels like im on a swing, forward and backwards.
or a see-saw, up and down.
or maybe like a wave. the ebb and flow of the water. far, den near.
yea. that's it. like a wave of the sea.
at least for now.

2008-01-03T23:34:00.000+08:00

this is an empty post.
to get rid of the one before that.

(:

and my hectic life starts.

2008-01-01T23:20:00.000+08:00

warning: emo post ahead

i swear that you dont have to go
i thought we could wait for the fireworks
i thought we could wait for the snow
to wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
i thought i could live in your arms
and spend every moment i have with you
stay up all night with the stars
confess all the faith that i had in you

*too late, im sure and lonely
its just another night, another dream wasted on you
so just be here now against me
you know the words, so sing along for me baby
for heavens sake i know youre sorry
but you wont stop crying
this anniversary may never be the same
inside i hope you know im dying, with my heart beside me
in shattered pieces that may never be replaced
and if I died right now, yould never be the same*

i thought with a month of apart
together would find us an opening
and moonlight would provide the spark
and that i would stumble across your key
or break down the door to your heart
forever could see us not you and me
and yould help me out of the dark
and ild give my heart as an offering

cuz i will always remember you
as you are right now to me
and i will always remember you now
remember you now

so sleep alone tonight
with no one here just by your side
sleep alone tonight
and how does he feel and how does he kiss
and how does he taste while hes on your lips

i cant forget you
i know you want me to want you
i want to
but i cant forgive you
so when this is over dont blow your composure baby

i cant forget you
i know you want me to want you
i want to...

three cheers for five years by mayday parade

emo song from nise. so anyways, im back from mission trip and i have thousand and one pictures to post. but for the past few days, try as i might, the post doesnt seem to be happy enough. i swear, i logged in here at least thrice, but den decided it was too emo. or else, blogger decided for me that it doesnt want an emo post up.

if i think hard enough, i just might start crying now. log guys are going NS. yea, seems like a stupid reason huh? dont laugh you guys. i know you guys not gonna die or anything [boy, does von love talking abt dying] but its just that, i wont be seeing yall so often as i'ld love to. and i wont be able to do sessions, even worst when yall in tekong or some ulu pandan place. and mission trip/log bonding just made it worst lah. and gen says guys who go to NS will stray and all. and im damn scared now.

i know that tml, the moment i step into school, i'll chiong all the way already. and the next big break that im gonna get is far away in april, after all the orientation stuff. im scared that by the time i go back, log wont be there any more.

so i keep thinking of justin's dream, of how we'll still be at RK eating prata as log, at 30 yrs old. and how soo says kong is damn holy. so his dream must be true.

i just hope everything i've gained from the 5 days in thailand can get me thru the next 4-5 months. its not gonna be easy. but im gonna do it. and i hope, if i can make it back after 4-5 months, the guys will not give up thruout the 2 yrs. that's whats community is for isnt it?

damn. i feel more emo now than when we left the kids at Lorenzo home.

'can we go down now?' -laughs thru the tears-

2007-12-26T01:01:00.000+08:00

hokay. so its 2 more hours before im suppose to wake up for my retarded-timed flight. omgomgomg, im so excited pleeasse!! ((:

anyways, xmas has been good. very commercial. not spiritual or anything this year. i love my two godma[s] lah. they might as well be fairy godmothers. lol. black nike bag for school and 200 kino vouchers. omgomg. von's becoming materialistic. and more fireworks and ang-mos at godma's hse in jb.

shikes. 2 hrs to sleep. hokay, before i go, need to publicise abit. you know the stupid video which a group of us have been working so hard on. yea, the one that made people stress and break down like a madwoman. its gonna be screened at Esplanade on the 30th and 31st December, at 1945, 2100 and 2215. pls go catch it. some of your faces might be there ((:

msn is evil. it makes you not sleep.

im gonna let go now.

2007-12-24T01:16:00.000+08:00

merry xmas eve! just came home from teri's hse. gahhhh. i hate my mother sometimes. made me come home when everyone else was staying over, so she indirectly made me walk home alone from teri's at 12 midnight. i didnt even dare take the kensington park route la. tho charles, shawn and jon were nice enough to offer to walk me home. had to walk by the main road. oof! i hate it but im too tired to question her warped thinking lah. we always end up in ugly arguements.

it kinda doesnt feel like sunday today. but i was in church this morning and i realised i miss church so much. i gotta literally stop myself from pouncing on pple to give them one big hug until their lungs stop functioning. ecks. and i cant believe its xmas so fast. this is like the second year i've missed advent to go straight into xmas. which is quite sad actually. one more year to go. sigh. not that its not worth it la. somehow, anything secular always loses out to holy moly churchie stuff.

so anyways, poey confirmed flight details and itinery and stuff this morning!! we're flying off on 26th, 4am in the frikin morning!! yay-ness!! funny thing is im coming home from jb the night before. and then cuz i was worried abt causeway jams, i told my mum why dont they just leave jb late den fetch me straight to the airport. she thinks im joking -.-

this is damn exciting. i'll be rooming with bel!! (: she sleep-talks, apparently. haha. and and and i havent bought and dont think i'll be buying insurance. [what if i die there?!!] hurms. ohwell. haha.

-sings 'im leaving on a jet plane... dont know when i'll be back again...'-

will be back on 30th lah! omgomgomg, i havent done stupid free-hand assignments. gahhhh!! k peeps, til then, takkaire!! i hope i dont contract AIDS. toodles.

2007-12-22T00:55:00.000+08:00

alrightey. OTC is finally over. and von has finally gotten enough sleep. cant wait for xmas!! omg omg, damn excited. sad thing is, my whole family is going into johore for xmas and is leaving me behind cuz adrian's going and im leaving early next morning for my flight. -pouts- gahhhh. my own godma's hse and im not going leh. sigh. who wants to call me out, pls do. omg, damn sad if no one calls me out. better start stocking up on mad tidbits and video-ezy.

anyways, i've just finished sending post-otc email to all 28 of my programmers. omg. i wanna slp now. on a random note, TP lost the President SR Nathan soccer cup. cuz von wasnt there pls. no lah. haha. but i seriously couldnt go. gotta return the bike i 'stole' for camp. i havent mentioned have i? tried to borrow jon's bike but i collected it when he was still at mass and i mistakenly took ashley's one. omg, damn paisei.

oh ya oh ya. -jumps up and down excitedly- my dress from nellyjoy arrived in the post while i was away at camp. lol. yay!! next time can buy stuff online alrdy!! and then again, not so yay. unfriendly to my bank pls. k la, sherry's hse tml for class xmas party. im beginning to like wallowing in xmas mood now.

thing is, can i really remember what CHRISTmas is all about?

2007-12-16T01:48:00.000+08:00

Out the door
Just in time
Head down the 405
Gotta meet the new boss by 8 am

The phone rings in the car
The wife is workin hard
She's runnin late tonight again

Well I know what I’ve been told
You gotta work to feed the soul
But I can’t do this all on my own
No I know
I’m no superman
I’m no superman

And you've got your love online
You think you're doin fine
But you’re just plugged into the wall

And that deck of tarot cards
Won’t get you very far
There ain't no hand to break your fall

Well I know what I've been told
You gotta know just when to fold,
But I can’t do this all on my own
No I know
I’m no superman
I’m no superman

You’ve crossed the finish line
Won the race but lost your mind
Was it worth it after all?

I need you here with me
Cause love is all we need,
Just take a hold of the hand that breaks the fall

Well I know what I’ve been told
Gotta break free to break the mold
But I can’t do this all on my own

No I can’t do this all on my own
No I know
That I'm no superman
I’m no superman

Someday we'll be together
I'm no superman

2007-12-13T23:26:00.000+08:00

alrightey. the last half an hour of my first day of being 18. lol. i come online only everyone scold me, say i nv tell pls -.-

so anyways, went out with the girls yday. the usual five la: gen, mag, joan and teri!! headed to clark quay. dont laugh. i've nv been there before. i quite love the place leh. its all so... ... fake. haha. and i like the fake-ness of it. lol. met at coffee club first den settled at the nectarie. oh mann. i love my girlfrens la.

so today, with the exception that it was sunny, was like any other day. paper sucked. gahhhh. horrible, brain-damaging paper! den off to lounge to do usual stuff. prog, make a wish, trying to mug and den failing to mug. so you see, its just an ordinary day. im just a happier person today. i think its psychological. haha. its just the way you see things i guess. liddat den i wish everyday is my birthday so i have a reason to be happy for nothing.

k, if you think a lil deeper, my post will start being preachy. but my mind is rather in a whirl now, i cant even blog coherrently. lol. im just happy today ((:

2007-12-10T21:18:00.000+08:00

five loaves and two fishes - corrine may [on repeat mode]

omg. so there was another life-saver moment today. i swear, this morning, not for the first time, i panicked until i went nauseous. make a wish is shortening my life, its not funny. and its only 3% downloaded now. gahhhh.

k, animal health and diseases is over. it'll be a miracle if i pass seriously. and its so content-heavy that it feels like the whole term test is over, cuz info that is not needed anymore goes out of the brain. haha. ahwell, pls pls scrape thru.

anyways, today's the one day that lounge doesnt open, felt so lost. lol. its a funny feeling. like you're expecting to go your bf's hse after breaking up, and then realise you cant. hahah. so instead of gg tm's starbucks like i wanted, followed aaron, nicky! and alden to compasspoint library. so funny cuz we were all from secondary schools ard that area: sengkang sec, nanchiau, holy innocents and SJC!! hurhur. our di pan leh last time.

bought 6 doughnuts omg. and i kept holding on to it thruout the whole bus ride cuz i scared i squash it. anyways, i was on the bus minding my own business when the advert for cold's storage came on. they were using 'he's got the whole world in his hand!' pls. so weird. using a semi-religious song. it doesnt even link, for god's sake [literally]

picked up a book 'the rape of nanking' at the library just now. wanted to borrow leh but alden advised otherwise. haha. might watch the movie. anyone up for it?

omg. 8% -.- k, toodles.

2007-12-06T23:51:00.000+08:00

omg. try having 3 events/meetings/thingies to attend all on one night. and that doesnt even include studying or dinner with my sis [which i cancelled anyway] gahhhh. someone help! im spread thin, i just wanna run away to start mugging cuz i dowan to fail!! i really dowan to fail!!

i use to think that one person can do so many things as long as you sacrifice sleep. that is so not true pls. sometimes things just keep coming and you get worn out. this is not an emo post. this is a realisation post that pple do get worn out. even with burning passion.

the spirit is [really] willing, but the flesh is weak

so i've just received email from swee confirming mission trip! woo! den gotta inform like the whole world on the other side that i've changed number. sometimes i forget loggers are one msn away (: poey showed me his prom pic. damn cute pls. haha. he's the only one wearing a lil bow tie and he looks like a lil boy. lol. i have a good mind to put it up now.

haha. here it is! 3rd from the left. woots. nice bling. and poor poey is so sad, soo gotta see fel chin at his prom, i got to see fel chin in school today, and poey didnt ): anyways, liver is even cuter. lol. i told him i broke the purple earrings he gave me and i have no time to glue it back!! how how how. den he said 'have lah. you'll find time. eventually what.' lol. like hong xiao hai zi liddat.

-smiles-

2007-12-05T00:03:00.000+08:00

((:

it feels like my birthday today. tho its in more than a week's time before im legal. first, had boring ACM lec. den while kyle was on the verge of killing me, decided not to go for free-hand. gahhhh. i've had it! its one week before term test!! yea, that was my ~~excuse~~ reason. haha. den went off for last minute lunch with my godma. yay-ness!! she got me a river island bag. not bad, i like.

den cuz the silly yijie went off to god knows where, ron to the rescue. so went back to school to meet ron to meet kyle, who was still on the verge of killing me. so we sent a low resolution vid to esplanade. and ron was being damn cranky pls. haha. we were like in kyle's office and he was taking down notes to improve on the vid, den while kyle was answering a phone call, stupid ron drew a cow. lol. he still wrote 'COW AR!' hahah wth pls. anyways, im listening to dishwalla's every little thing ((: damn nice.

k, so after very minimal mugging, went off to j8 to get new phone!! ((: its the nokia 5610 Xpress music i blogged abt last post. and oh mann, i've been using relatively lousy phone that when i got my new phone, all the gazillion functions were super overwhelming pls. so right now im tinkering with it while msn-ing yijie, xiuxiu and lynette instead of actually mugging. mann!! im gonna fail term test!! that's damn noob cuz no one fails term test -.-

nvm that. i was gonna put up my new hp number here budden again... internet predators are rampant nowadays arh. k, so anyways i've changed my number la. pls refer to my msn nick. thankyew ((:

2007-12-03T00:49:00.000+08:00

k, i dunno how i can break down three times over a stupid video. woke up rather grumpily this morning. and was feeling like crap cuz no food in church. rawr. den daniel came over to talk for awhile. prolly feeling full of gratitude that i managed to return his beloved iPod. haha. but yea, made me laugh abit. a real laugh throughout the whole day. thankyew best friend. im convinced they've forgotten all abt our first cut and is currently waiting for our final piece. lol. ohwells. the hours just kept getting better lah. i think when i finally see the vid, it wont look so stupid no more (:

"even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the lord will renew their strength. they will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not faint."

- isaiah 40:30-31

anyways, my family decided to have an early bday dinner. so retarded cuz it didnt even feel like my bday yet. and my sis wasnt there. haha. gonna get a new phone. nokia 5610 express music. its original price is 600+ pls!! getting it at the promotional price of $98. yea, gotta let go of my sony erricsson w580i. sigh. i super like the latter lah!! k, gotta get back to stupid free-hand. this week's on plants pls. he just shoved the whole assignment to us, like we didnt even learn any new technique to apply -.- gahhhh. quiz tml. die! cant rmb!! psoroptes cunicoli, eimeria stiedae, clostridium piliforme, ahhhhh. thousand more to memorize. help!!

2007-12-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

he has already apologised. but its times like these that i really wanna strangle someone pls. fuck. and im blogging cuz there's ntg for me to do but wait. i feel so helpless now. plsplspls let it be okay. everytime there's one new mail, i get damn scared. maybe its them chasing us to submit. we've already past the deadline. 12 hrs have gone... 18 hrs... its been 24 hrs... when are they gonna email us to say we've been disqualified?

my heart goes out to you.
thankyou.

2007-12-01T13:37:00.000+08:00

if there is one person you cant stop thinking about,
post this same exact sentence in your journal

2007-11-30T02:49:00.000+08:00

so its almost 3am on the 30th of november. and im staring at the two convos on my screen and im tearing already. this is why you shld employ TP's designers. tell them brief 'storyline' and they tell you deadline can be met. omg, i dont even know them. and they keep telling kim and i not to worry. practically what i was doing the past two days. thankyew ronron, luffy and yijie!!

by the way,
deadline is 30th november (:

2007-11-27T23:56:00.000+08:00

-shrieks- i spoiled my free-hand drawing!! after re-doing like twice. that's re-re-doing!! ):

so im beginning to like waking up early just so my dad can fetch me to school. and i dont have to squeeze on the bus with stupid old chee-ko-peks any more. and i can arrive early to quietly have breakfast by meself. hmmm.. the life..

for two blissful days, had daniel's iPod all to myself. haha. he left it in church and i was nice enough to pick it up for him. omg! he had like all the songs from BOYS LIKE GIRLS!! ahhhhhhh!! i love!! anyways, he came to pick it up today before he went off to chalet or smtg. with his other side of his lip pierced -.-

was on my way to lounge when i met SU pple gg to sakae. den lynette dragged me along, so next thing i knew there were 5 pple at the backseat of glenn's car. [haha. i typed backside before i editted it to backseat. lol.] it was glenn, benchow, caleb, john, adrian, tomu, lynette and me in sitting order. they were damn crappy btw. yay mochi! ((:

hello shortie.

2007-11-24T22:38:00.000+08:00

this post is dedicated to my bestie's mom who has just passed away

for all the times adel and i pon school and she let us stay at her hse
for all the times she wrote my 'parents letter' when i didnt turn up for school
for all the times she cooked for me, i could stay at adel's hse the whole day
for all the times she was so motherly, not only to her children but also her niece

rest in peace.

2007-11-22T20:31:00.000+08:00

omgdnssss!! make a wish is finally over!! turnout was pretty good. but i admit organization is crappy. gahhhh. i hope esplanade is happy anyway. over over over over over... ...

-jumps up and down-
-skips in circles-
-la la la la la-

k next. quiz tml!! -.- and and and, oh mann, meeting joan and mag tml!! like finally pls!! ya, i feel as excited as tinklebell, bouncing off every corner of the room!!! AHHHHHHHH!!! EYE MEES YEW!!! den baking with nise on saturday for bake sale on sunday. yes, pls come buy from us to raise funds for mission trip (: we're aiming for $30,000 tho i think that's quite mad. yay! ard $15,000 more to go. hurhur.

so anyways, whats been going on recently is all this talk on who's running. [so fast??] yea. dunno what happened to this yr's batch, its quite scary actually. so once again, i gotta think of what i want. what i want to sacrifice that is. like ger said, its not fair to the people ard me. sighs. think i shld decide after otc leh. we'll see...

ya ya, saint nicholas coming soon lah. bwahah. its a pun!! i said a pun!! lol.

2007-11-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

today's like the first sunday ever where i slpt in and didnt go for morning mass. hurhur. had the whole morning and afternoon to study. den went for sunset mass with my parents. met jacintha and farah at j8. i was the 3rd SU person they met! bwahah. they met tomu and leb-leb at suntec apparently. lol.

k, after TPrawks ar, the excitement of everything else pales in comparison. haha. was watching 'the noose' on channel 5. go watch pls!! its freaking crappy and highly entertaining. lol. gurmit says as he closes the show 'and remember, if you see a black cat crossing your path, it signifies that, the cat is going somewhere' rofl. like wth arh. hahaha. just imagine, the whole show was like that. its like some news programme with fake reporters and fake incidents, but they did it so professionally, its rather funny. haha. they had old grannys going to arcades, bullying students and alot of other shit lah. catch it next week.

yay!! my sis gonna put up xmas tree this week. all our ornaments are fading and she wanted to buy cheapo ones from daiso. so i asked my sis to put red apples and white wafers. yep, did you know that these were initially hung on the real xmas trees? father ho told us last yr about how xmas trees came about. the fir tree is an evergreen tree that does not wilt even during winter, the apple [or fruit actually] represents the fall of man cuz adam sinned and ate the apple, and the wafer represents life again cuz jesus died for us so we could have life. and the star was originally there too, it showed the way to bethlehem. bwahaha. you get the idea. its really interesting arh, every part of the tree signifies smtg. the presents came in a bit later, from the story of saint nicholas. see if i have time, i'll put it up in my next post (:

k, gotta go study for some more quizzes. gahhhh.

2007-11-17T22:29:00.000+08:00

woots. 3 days of TPrawks have just ended. im like damn shacked right now pls. had a great time with greenies!! (: we had some sports school rawkers and we requested for team singapore jerseys. and they gave me these shirts which are ten sizes too big lah! lol. anyways, besides tt, got lotsa slp to catch up with.

went to collect passport this morning. gahhhh. after all the slpless nights, i woke up early at 7 to collect my ugly passport. had prog meeting after tt and den to elene's hse. after tt, went to meet loggers!!! oh mann, u wouldnt believe what happened lah. went off from elene's hse to town and my phone freaking died halfway there. was suppose to meet them at wheelock fish&co but they werent there when i reached!! so i had no way to contact them at all. tried to use my laptop to send a msg budden their numbers were in my sim card -.- so i depressingly walked ard borders. and guess what?! they found me along the aisle of the cd section!! yay!! i was so relieved i cried in the middle of borders pls. lol. mann, i miss u guys.

so anyway, im watching 'license to wed' right now with my sis. another sweet sweet love story -beams-

2007-11-11T01:54:00.000+08:00

alright guys. last post damn emo. im fine now (: thankyew yall!

so anyways, today went to do cip. took some kids around haw par villa, all not more than 10 yrs old. they're all so cute lah!! haha. as usual, 3 of us girls were grouped with the [5 minus peng ghee] 4 guys. and our kids consisted of 5 boys, so everything they gao dim. haha. but omg, we still died at amazing race la. im getting old mann. they run, we chase. lol. we didnt win in the end la, but if there was a best group, im damn sure we would have won it. all cause of desmond babey pls. lol. 'the most obedient child in the 10 courts of hell will get an everlasting gobstopper' bribery lah! now, we all know why belle's so obedient for animal lab.

so after a back-breaking day, i went off to slp at 8 just now. and im suppose to be online searching for the stupid email john seah suppose to send at 11! so im actually awake now at 2am for ntg!! gahhhhh.

2007-11-06T20:15:00.000+08:00

music playing: miss you like crazy by the moffats [on repeat mode]

warning: rant ahead! possibly of self-pity

im tired. already -.- i dont know how other people do it. just keep going on and on, and it doesnt stop. in fact, it keeps piling. and i cant do everything. cant. when was the last time i used that word? dont bother, that was rhetorical. being naive has a positive result of turning cannots into cans. but im growing up too quickly-retorts. im turning 18!! and the whole world owes me presents!!!! yea, im getting cranky as well

-dont highlight if you're gonna laugh-

fuck. im going insane. and vulgar; i wont even strike that off. my mum's darn irritating. firstly, she made me come home for dinner when i could have went to watch stardust with loggers. and now, she's on the verge of killing me over not finishing the food, when my dad told me to keep for tml. wth la. i miss loggers so badly, i want to cry. literally. but even if i go meet them, all they'll do is talk abt freaking a'levels. sometimes, i wish i went jc. even if i know i'ld fail everything. and i wanna watch stardust really badly. just for that few hours of getaway time, sunk into a nvm good, but relatively unrealistic movie. need that.

i miss my classmates. since school started, i havent had lunch with sherry. how retarded, considering she's the closest to me in class. i miss liwei and adelyn, and gossips with them. i miss church people, who're living their own lives. i miss liver, whom i had a terrible nightmare abt tt day and is still worried abt him. i miss nise, cuz she doesnt really talk much abt papers. heck, she doesnt even know where she's gg after cj. i miss our endless conversations on threadless tees, and singing songs on her guitar. i miss joan. and all the times i could have talked to her, but now she's so far away. i miss daniel and our dinners. i miss walking home thru kensington park, listening to his amazing ipod. i miss squabbling with him over nonsensical stuff.

i miss my family. i miss coming home early for dinner. now, they dont even wait for me. even if i come home relatively early. i miss going out with my sis. her boyfriend has taken my place. sisterly outings has turned into dates, with me tagging along. i miss mag and teri. girlfriends for life seem so hard to picture now. thank god there's still gen.

i think im gonna be forgotten soon.

2007-11-04T00:30:00.001+08:00

yes, im well aware its 0030am on a sunday morning. im gradually becoming nocturnal. met up with gen for dinner just now. i miss her already. sigh. talked abt lots of stuff, and she always has so many stories to tell me. haha. one dinner with her is like two condensed amplify sessions.

anyways after the stories, we decided to shop ard. we walked into this shop selling glass board games. i saw the tic-tac-toe and said 'eh, lets play' so we removed all the pieces first, den the shop-keeper came up and asked in freaking chinese 'ke yi bang ni ma?' and gen freaking replied nonchalently in english 'oh, we're just looking'. den right in front of her, we started playing tic-tac-toe! ahahahah! as if it wasnt enough ar, when we hurriedly walked out, gen bumped her head against the glass shelf she couldnt see! and she couldnt stop squealing. rofl. so both of us ended up laughing in the middle of the corridor, tearing from lack of oxygen and stomach cramps. lol.

retarded gen. lol.

anyways, after the refeshing meet-up, returned very quickly back to reality. im going insane.

on the brink of insanity. or rather, as gen says, on the brink of sanity. haha.

alot is going on in my head right now. and with electrico's hello on repeat mode, wallowing in emo-ness sounds perfect. gahhhh. kanye west says: now that dont kill me, can only make me stronger. budden its in a relatively different and obscene context -.-

hello, stupid and rescue
can you send somebody please
'cause i cant wait another minute
as my sunlight slips away

2007-10-31T23:25:00.000+08:00

mann, i swear LTA is freaking brainless. like in the middle of the day close off two out of three lanes. they created a jam from hougang all the way to eunos lah!! bozos!! was worse than morning jam. and it made me late for class pls. i left hse at 2 and reached at 3.20 can. bahhh. idiots. lucky teacher was nice.

k, nuff of whining

shucks la. got so much things to do these few days. should have been at the lounge today. there were pple coming in for interview and i wasnt there!! -.- anyways, had to help sherry do the baking. we're sharing the cart-shop with jiahui. pls patronise tml, thankyew (:

and and, tml is all saints' day of obligation!! morning mass will kill me cuz i have 8am lec and i cant make it in the evening. so after a few hours of panic, i found a 1pm mass at church of holy trinity. haha. yay! praise god! so near school some more.

just msn-ed joan to ask if she has decided on mission trip. she's going!!! woots. cant wait lah. log bonding at last, after their horrible a'levels. we're going like right after xmas, which is boxing day. im mad ar. cant even be bothered if school starts on the 31st dec or in jan. haha.

k, thousand and one things to complete starting with sleep. bonsoir.

2007-10-31T00:18:00.000+08:00

k, im officially sick! i feel it coming mann. that sucky feeling in your throat. i just know it. the viruses are living off my cells!! heaty, my mum calls it.

i know its only tuesday, but this is the best week i've ever had. haha. hmmm, actually you can nv be too sure. i just opened a chain mail which i deleted. ohwells.

i need sleep. oyasumi.

2007-10-27T20:57:00.000+08:00

when you've put in effort in one part of your life,
you usually lose something in another

when you've put in a lot more effort in one part of your life,
you usually lose a lot more in another

im sorry
i didnt mean to

2007-10-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

I've been worn away by birthday memories and galleries

Of pictures in my head of you when I'm away

I'd do anything to keep this fear from flowing through my veins

I'd stay awake and fret just for you

2007-10-24T22:53:00.000+08:00

right. i was actually already in my room, falling asleep but my sis turned on the tv so loudly i could hear 'jenny' on the live the dream results show. and i rmbed i hadta blog tt

THE CLICK 5 WENT TO SJC!!!

mann, wish i was there to see. hur. anyways, the girls prolly went crazy lah. from the newpaper picture, they were all over the guys. haha. the click 5 went zhong hua sec too. budden, cuz they didnt have the ang mo culture, the newpaper reporter jack them in the article like mad. haha. girls and boys were sitting apart, and after the performance, the girls didnt even stand for them. damn wasted.

i love IJ's ang mo culture lah! (: