After awhile you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul.
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't mean security.
(kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises)
And you begin to accept your defeats
with your head held high and your eyes wide open,
with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child.
You learn to build your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain
and the inevitable has a way of crumbling in mid-flight.
After awhile you learn that even sunshine burns
if you stand too long in one place.
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn you really can endure,
And you really do have worth.
You learn that
with every good-bye comes the dawn.
Saturday, 20 September 2008
im not crazy
im just a little unwell
i know right now you cant tell
yes, well, the bug has spread from william to randall and now to yours dearest. its starting to build up. i can feel it in my fingers i feel it in my nose )): hahah!!
so today, im gonna blog abt foreign talent. hur. was with my family dinner-ing at the block downstairs. at a coffee shop, quite recently taken over and revamped by china people [somehow calling them chinese puts us all on equal level, no offence intended]. so anyways, there was this guy who came to take our drinks order. i've nv seen him ard, so i guess he must be new. my dad and i ordered ice lemon tea. and my sister and adrian were sharing a can of ju hua cha [chrysathamum tea]. we ordered 2 ILT and 1 ju hua. den when he repeated our orders, he said 2 ILT and 2 ju hua. and when we told him, only 1 ju hua, he made such a big fuss tt 2 pple were sharing one can -.- hokay, so off he went to get our drinks. 5mins ltr, he came back and asked, 2ILT and 1 lu cha right? and we told him its ju hua cha. 5mins ltr, he came with his whole tray of drinks, and instead of taking the ju hua cha out, he took the lu cha!! how exasperating can this man get lah.
so being amused [and being von], i laughed. and tt guy looked at me and said 'ni xiao she me?' not in a joking manner leh. in this challenging sort of tone. i was nice enough not to reply pls. omg. tt was atrocious service for you. afterwards, my dad told me shld have just said 'xiao ni lor'. sheesh. -shakes head-
finally finished my sister's wedding mass booklet. yes, i drew. hur. free-hand. so all those coming for her wedding mass, pls keep the booklet. lol.
also finished the idiot's guide to creative writing. heh. i actually dont mind spending another 3 yrs at TP studying all the CDS. hahah! i might start writing soon. [actually, the book considers blogging as writing too! (: ) not gonna be shown to the world as yet. i still think abt my traumatic o'level geog telling me i cant write. sigh.
my mum was watching nigella feasts on cable 16 yday. she says she dont like her cooking, but she still watches -.- i actually dont mind the food, but i hate watching her shows cuz of the way she talks. lol. she talks in a damn exaggerated seductive tone if u realise. hur. anyways, after yday, i feel inspired to make tortilla wraps to bring to work. heh. after all, the rest of them always eat upstairs anyway.
von is addicted to 'everybody nose' by NERD. the one tt goes:
all the girls standing in the line for the bathroom
all the girls standing in the line for the bathroom
all the girls standing in the [all the girls standing in the]
all the girls standing in the line for the bathroom
((:
10:28 pm
Thursday, 18 September 2008
zomg. the new facebook sucks like mad. so laggy pls. you click on one link and then you wait 5 seconds for the current page to disappear, 10 seconds you see a blank page, and then another 10 seconds for the link you clicked to appear -.-hokay, here's my SIP update. heh. its been almost 2 weeks alrdy. omg. 18 more weeks leh. damn fast. bahhh. so anyways, my lab got mainly 3 other pple, bhuvana, lucky and william. hur. at first they like damn not friendly ar. randall and i always go eat by ourselves. budden after awhile, we started talking abt random stuff, cuz the waiting times are really atrocious. like sometimes can wait until 2 hours tt kind. anyways, they're damn funny la. if the big boss bugged tt place, i tell u, all of us are goners. lol!!-sings 'we're all in this together...'-so anyways, altho whatever i type sounds damn happy, im actually quite emo now. see la. this is what going out with joan does to you. hur. kidding la babe, loves. k la, i is off now. toodles world.
11:16 pm
Sunday, 14 September 2008
You have received a new message from Facebook.You have received a new message from Facebook.You have received a new message from Facebook.You have received a new message from Facebook.You have received a new message from Facebook.You have received a new message from Facebook.You have received a new message from Facebook.You have received a new message from Facebook.You have received a new message from Facebook.You have received a new message from Facebook.stop spamming alrdy guys!! hur. so today was confirmation. not mine tho. but i did help sing. heh. shikes. wished i recorded my cantor part of 'we will run'. then can post and advertise myself for anyone who needs a vocalist. hur. it was perfect for the first time la, praise god. and thks to jon as well. heh. shld have seen our faces. both of us were grinning when i hit the note, even before i finished the whole verse.anyways, after tt, cuz of the ManU vs Liverpool match, liver was pestering us to go alrdy. hur. we left church damn late ar. cartel had problems with their cable, so we ended up at Liquid Kitchen. omg, we drank so much. actually, it wasnt much la, but we paid alot for it. hur. and liver was the pimp for the night. lol. he had 6 girls ard him. hahah. cam-whored like mad as well. jess is currently tagging the whole world on facebook. and bel too. bobby [anne's cam] died. and kris dont have her cam with her right now. but facebook is going berserk and flooding with comments and tags alrdy.k, i got a song stuck in my head. its a new one learnt just yday. supposedly spanish but when kenneth plays it, his jazzy playing style turned it into a relaxing-under-a-palm-tree-on-a-holiday song. lol! i like! and i bet jess cant get it out of her head either.enviatu espiritu, enviatu espiritu, enviatu espiritusea renovada la faz de la tierrasea renovada la faz de la tierraomg. loggers can just facebook the whole night. i wanna sleep!!!! tml still got session y'know!!!! im outta here mann. post abt internship another day. toodles.
12:56 am
Thursday, 4 September 2008
why hello foot arch pain. random fact: von has bunions. hur. in case you're some kind of orthopedic doctor (: i make nice footprints in the sand. so far, that's the only good that can come out of bunions.yay. efforts to change my style of writing [or typing] has paid off! but then again, could have been some random spammer. ohwells. i really really do want to get into communications y'know. i dont post up many pictures but i guess i can practice creative wrting here. heh. quite creative what eh?so what has von been doing the past few days. well... von has been sleeping with the enemy [msn nick]. metaphorically obviously. it is so not helping that i is facil at retreat this weekend. omg. pls dont judge me -runs and hide-SPOILER [do not read if you havent finished season 3 of 'The L Word']which also means you freaking slow lah. hur. im freaking slow i know. lol. so yes, i finished season 2 in 2 days. and season 3 in another 2 days. was watching final episode this afternoon when i stopped halfway to go sleep. i know, you're asking like, huh? isnt final episode suppose to be exciting? argh. i spoiled it. i read the ending on wikipedia ): and you know how series are. sucks the life out of you. after marathon-ing, you feel like you live in it. and sadly, in season 3, dana dies, shane and carmen were supposed to get married but the brainless shane went and left carmen at the altar [which is pretty contradictory considering they're lesbians] mann, this is the part of the whole 6 series where it goes downhill after the climax. boo... dont like. need to get my life back mann. start living again. so yea, i'll prolly finish the other half of season 3 final episode when i start sip. lol!!so what else did von do for the holidays? can i just officially announce, von is virgin clubber no more!! yea, went with sherry and the guys. was quite fun. in fact, i just might go regular. mag and i have a plan. heh.besides that, just came home from dinner with godma. oh mann, initially she wanted to finance my overseas internship yea? but now tt im not gg, she got me to go shopping with her. and she practically cancelled half the things on my wishlist. actually, im exaggerating. which says something abt my level of materialism. hur. but she did get me substantial amount of stuff for me to feel guilty lah. i think im gonna get her mooncakes. hahah!from global sounds cafe. was there that day with girlfriends. had an awesome time with them!! we were jumping around like monkeys, fooling around with miniature guitars, better known as ukeleles, and took pictures of us posing under the tables. lol! great ambience, but food dont live up to its expectations. in-house band members quite cute tho. and yea, they have nice mooncakes. chocolate rum in snowskin ((: sounds good by itself already ar? heh. more pictures on FB. like i said, i dont blog pictures. damn lazy pls.also met up with xiuhui! stupid brandon ps. elene had last minute proj and saf had training. can u believe it, he's back in dragonboat -.- aye. we'll meet up soon la. but meeting up with xh was good. lol! and among other things, i told her abt my 3 year love/hate relationship with -censored- hahah! eh xiuxiu, u better not divulge my secret to anyone please. i will have u strangled.i think i better go clean up my act for this weekend. omg. fr brian is gonna be so crossed with me. ps. do not watch 'The L Word' unless you intend to turn gay or lesbian
11:43 pm