After awhile you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul.
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't mean security.
(kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises)
And you begin to accept your defeats
with your head held high and your eyes wide open,
with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child.
You learn to build your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain
and the inevitable has a way of crumbling in mid-flight.
After awhile you learn that even sunshine burns
if you stand too long in one place.
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn you really can endure,
And you really do have worth.
You learn that
with every good-bye comes the dawn.
Friday, 29 February 2008
WARNING: SPOILER ALERT!!be warned. and dont blame me. haha.hokay. so im back from watching the leap years. really liked the story. makes you go all lovey-dovey, if you're attached, and emo if you're not. haha. i like wallowing in emo-ness. and and and, guess what. i was plesantly surprised when a scene from the movie was shot at SJC!! yay!! in mrs debra tan's lit homeroom some more. got tt lil raised platform [stage?] heh -grins- and had alot of corrine may's songs.alrightey. after all the praises, comes the complaints. dont read if you dont want to.the movie was technically quite disappointing. it wasnt in chronological order. means it was flashback scenes which told the whole story. and the funny thing was the 'flashback' scenes were clearer than the 'present' scenes. and omg, qi yuwu cannot slang. sigh. if he was meant to be cheena then he shld have spoken true blue singlish lah. and, i thot they did quite a bad job linking the past and present. joan chen really looks like an older version of li lin, but i guess it takes more than looks. and omg, talking abt looks, the most insulting one: the older version of jeremy is some old ah peck pls! ananda everingham how shuai lah. dont look like him at all arh.but you know what, whatever it is, i think the faith in love it gives its audience, and the inspiring quotes make it all worth the money lah. haha. eating my own words. ohwells. if you are not too long,i will wait for you all my life
11:59 pm
Thursday, 28 February 2008
hokay. so the lazy bum is finally awake from the couch potato syndrome. bwahahah! know what, i have no idea what the previous sentence meant. lol. omg. im just relieved exams are over. for a few days alrdy actually. its time for prog to kick into full swing. heh.that, and a bit of 'me' time (: bake, swim, french, tim burton movies... k la, and erm, maybe god. did you know in the mv for 'dirty little secrets' by the all-american rejects, one of it said: i miss being close to godi miss log. just the other night, my mind was wandering aimlessly. and i panicked cuz i forgot oliver's chinese name!! oliver leh!! hurhur. i know, it sounds dumb. and its not just the guys, the girls as well. joan GF, i miss you like crazy. even more than words can say please.anyways, leap years tml with ppg, japheth, wilson and des!! ((: yay!! cant wait. i like the trailer music leh. i want the soundtrack! talking abt music, brandon-the-kuku just sent me tons of emo stuff. haha. tt boy ar, suicidal leh. and i bought lime this month for the local music cd. pls all go buy now. and i also bought girl meets bossa nova by olivia, this singaporean jazz singer based in japan. so von is a very happy girl with a not so happy savings account. sigh. alrightey. dinner's ready. mum's screaming.it is not in the stars to hold our destiny, but in ourselves
5:56 pm
Sunday, 24 February 2008
i hope u're doing fine out there without mecause im not doing so good without youthe things i thought u'ld never know about mewere the things i guess you always understoodso how could i have been so blind for all these yearsguess i only see the truth through all this fearof living without youand everything i have in this worldand all that i'll ever beit could all fall down around mejust as long as i have youright here by mei can't take another day without youcause baby i could never make it on my owni've been waiting so long just to hold youand to be back in your arms where I belongsorry i can't always find the words to saybut everything i've ever known gets swept awayinside of your loveand everything i have in this worldand all that i'll ever beit could all fall down around mejust as long as i have youright here by meas the days grow long i seethat time is standing still for mewhen u're not heresorry i can't always find the words to sayeverything i've ever known gets swept awayinside of your loveand everything i have in this worldand all that i'll ever beit could all fall down around mejust as long as i have youright here by mehere by me - 3 doors down
12:25 pm
Monday, 18 February 2008
im getting old. weak like mad pls. damn. havent been slping well the whole of last week. bloody free-hand lah! hur. nvm, its over nowwww... bwahah!! keep having headaches. gahhhh. terrible ones some more. and i dont get sick easily kind.k, anyways. acm is over, so can slack abit. i really thot i was gonna fail can. cuz i started studying only yday. ya la. totally forgot tt i had otc refresh on sat, happily thinking at least got two days, can pull thru. von damn smart. so yday met zach and des to mug. zach went for mass at my church first den we went off to j8 cartel. i swear by that place arh. in your desperate moments, when coffee bean chases you away [grrr] and macs is simply too crowded, you can always go cartel -beams- omg, those two make me laugh like mad with their retarded sound effects pls. hurhur. talk about normal stuff also can come up with crappy ideas. and its the kind where you visualise in cartoons kind. lol. first zach. cuz i had two sets of notes i can choose to study from; one is word doc and the other ppt. so he asked if i study better with pictures or pure memorizing from words. den he said pictures better, den when the qn come out, can PIAM just rmb the position of the answer on the ppt. LOL.den des another one. he asked whats the diff between paturition and whelping. den i was trying to explain paturition got many stages and whelping is just... and he completed my sentence, whelping is just BAHM, one short give birth. ROFL. actually, come to think of it now, i think its the same. hahah!anyways, there was one time we were talking about spirits and stuff. did you know construction workers put marbles between each floor so tt 'they' can play with it, instead of disturbing pple. sometimes at night, can hear marbles being dropped from the floor upstairs. almost everyone hears it la. unless you're living in house. den cuz we studying reproduction right, i mentioned tt during mating, the doe [female rabbit] will try to castrate the buck [male rabbit] and des went like 'huh? really? orh, tt's where the marbles came from la. not ghosts la.' hurhurhurhur. OMG. -exasperated look-so after 8 hours yday, still havent pia finish. tt's why gotta wake up at 4 this morning, which caused the bloody headache. hmmm. maybe its caffeine. k, gotta chiong mbio now. its jason chang's subject leh! des says it works only for the girls. haha. too right.
3:56 pm
Thursday, 14 February 2008
You can fill the darkness
with just one flash of light
Break the silence with just one word
One defiance starts a revolution
One life can save the world
On the steps of Washington
Sprinkled like confetti
Thousands of people sing
“We shall overcome”
The preacher shouts :
“Let freedom ring.”
He gave his life for what he believed
You can be a witness
You can be a prophet
You can make the whole world believe
Break the strongest fortress
Change the way the world thinks
You can build a bridge where
foes can meet
Hope for the future
Shout it, don’t whisper
Dreams are what we make them to be
There is hope in every heartbeat
Tiny as it seems
You’re a beautiful seed
She’s a pastor’s daughter
She’s only 16
But her heart and her belly
are breaking at the seams
Her boyfriend blames her,
he wants to pay
for the doctor to wash it away
As she lays in the hospital,
A Christmas choir is singing
About a child in a manger,
fragile and small
“Unto us is born a Savior”
She looks at her baby and cries
as she sings him a lullaby
You can be a witness
You can be a prophet
You can make the whole world believe
Break the strongest fortress
Change the way the world thinks
You can build a bridge where
foes can meet
Hope for the future
in the tiniest whisper
Dreams are what we make them to be
There is hope in every heartbeat
Tiny as it seems
You’re a beautiful seed
Every hope, every power
lies in the heart of a seed that flowers
Intertwined all across the land
We’re all seeds in the maker’s hands.
Beautiful Seed - Corrine May
2:13 pm
Sunday, 3 February 2008
yes yes. im alive. im just [refer to above]...busy mending broken pieces of the life i had before. emo shit. no lah! lol. im just lazy busy, fullstop.anyways, back from night out with gary, abby and jiayi. heh. woots pls. we went to watch sweeney todd!! -beams- its this morbid movie abt a revengeful barber who was unjustly imprisoned by some idiotic judge. super gory. yay! haha. oh mann, tim burton is my idol lah. ya ya, 'whatever!' all you johnny depp fans. oh, and did i mention it's a musical. johnny depp sings well pls. but the idea of a dark musical just seems weird. i like. heh. pls go catch it. on a weekday, and dont pay 10 bucks like me!! im so pissed cathay raised the prices. ecks. its M18 btw. ya, kena check my ic -.-company was awesome. ugly girl just keep wanting to kill pple only. and we were all so fussy during dinner, what food, where to go etc. bwahah! den on our way home, abby, jiayi and i were walking tgt when the guy in front of us dropped his coins into the drain! it didnt even clink on the grill, it just went straight down. haha. omg, damn funny. cuz he like just kept on walking nonchalently, while i went 'oops' and abby went 'oh, so sad' and jiayi couldnt stop laughing cuz of our comments. lol. and the funniest thing was it was only like some 30 cents. rofl. hokay, the songs from the musical-movie are still in my head! actually, tt's cuz i watched it twice. heh. streamed it from youtube budden cuz it was illegal, it kinda got deleted halfway thru so i was left stuck knowing half of the movie -.- i hope they sell the soundtrack. haha. i mean, who wants to buy soundtracks of a morbid movie.i need new shoes!! the shoes i just bought got no friction at all!! made me fall 3 times. like jesus leh. haha. actually, it was a slip la. still, 3 times!! gahhhh.k, gotta chiong blardy acm proj tml. submissions, prac tests, term tests, sem exams, here i come!!
12:35 am