warning: emo post ahead
i swear that you dont have to go
i thought we could wait for the fireworks
i thought we could wait for the snow
to wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
i thought i could live in your arms
and spend every moment i have with you
stay up all night with the stars
confess all the faith that i had in you
*too late, im sure and lonely
its just another night, another dream wasted on you
so just be here now against me
you know the words, so sing along for me baby
for heavens sake i know youre sorry
but you wont stop crying
this anniversary may never be the same
inside i hope you know im dying, with my heart beside me
in shattered pieces that may never be replaced
and if I died right now, yould never be the same*
i thought with a month of apart
together would find us an opening
and moonlight would provide the spark
and that i would stumble across your key
or break down the door to your heart
forever could see us not you and me
and yould help me out of the dark
and ild give my heart as an offering
cuz i will always remember you
as you are right now to me
and i will always remember you now
remember you now
so sleep alone tonight
with no one here just by your side
sleep alone tonight
and how does he feel and how does he kiss
and how does he taste while hes on your lips
i cant forget you
i know you want me to want you
i want to
but i cant forgive you
so when this is over dont blow your composure baby
i cant forget you
i know you want me to want you
i want to...
three cheers for five years by mayday parade
emo song from nise. so anyways, im back from mission trip and i have thousand and one pictures to post. but for the past few days, try as i might, the post doesnt seem to be happy enough. i swear, i logged in here at least thrice, but den decided it was too emo. or else, blogger decided for me that it doesnt want an emo post up.
if i think hard enough, i just might start crying now. log guys are going NS. yea, seems like a stupid reason huh? dont laugh you guys. i know you guys not gonna die or anything [boy, does von love talking abt dying] but its just that, i wont be seeing yall so often as i'ld love to. and i wont be able to do sessions, even worst when yall in tekong or some ulu pandan place. and mission trip/log bonding just made it worst lah. and gen says guys who go to NS will stray and all. and im damn scared now.
i know that tml, the moment i step into school, i'll chiong all the way already. and the next big break that im gonna get is far away in april, after all the orientation stuff. im scared that by the time i go back, log wont be there any more.
so i keep thinking of justin's dream, of how we'll still be at RK eating prata as log, at 30 yrs old. and how soo says kong is damn holy. so his dream must be true.
i just hope everything i've gained from the 5 days in thailand can get me thru the next 4-5 months. its not gonna be easy. but im gonna do it. and i hope, if i can make it back after 4-5 months, the guys will not give up thruout the 2 yrs. that's whats community is for isnt it?
damn. i feel more emo now than when we left the kids at Lorenzo home.
'can we go down now?' -laughs thru the tears-