music playing: miss you like crazy by the moffats [on repeat mode]
warning: rant ahead! possibly of self-pity
im tired. already -.- i dont know how other people do it. just keep going on and on, and it doesnt stop. in fact, it keeps piling. and i cant do everything. cant. when was the last time i used that word? dont bother, that was rhetorical. being naive has a positive result of turning cannots into cans. but im growing up too quickly-retorts. im turning 18!! and the whole world owes me presents!!!! yea, im getting cranky as well
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fuck. im going insane. and vulgar; i wont even strike that off. my mum's darn irritating. firstly, she made me come home for dinner when i could have went to watch stardust with loggers. and now, she's on the verge of killing me over not finishing the food, when my dad told me to keep for tml. wth la. i miss loggers so badly, i want to cry. literally. but even if i go meet them, all they'll do is talk abt freaking a'levels. sometimes, i wish i went jc. even if i know i'ld fail everything. and i wanna watch stardust really badly. just for that few hours of getaway time, sunk into a nvm good, but relatively unrealistic movie. need that.
i miss my classmates. since school started, i havent had lunch with sherry. how retarded, considering she's the closest to me in class. i miss liwei and adelyn, and gossips with them. i miss church people, who're living their own lives. i miss liver, whom i had a terrible nightmare abt tt day and is still worried abt him. i miss nise, cuz she doesnt really talk much abt papers. heck, she doesnt even know where she's gg after cj. i miss our endless conversations on threadless tees, and singing songs on her guitar. i miss joan. and all the times i could have talked to her, but now she's so far away. i miss daniel and our dinners. i miss walking home thru kensington park, listening to his amazing ipod. i miss squabbling with him over nonsensical stuff.
i miss my family. i miss coming home early for dinner. now, they dont even wait for me. even if i come home relatively early. i miss going out with my sis. her boyfriend has taken my place. sisterly outings has turned into dates, with me tagging along. i miss mag and teri. girlfriends for life seem so hard to picture now. thank god there's still gen.
i think im gonna be forgotten soon.