Saturday, 28 July 2007
mann, i feel like im on holiday. not cuz im damn free or anything. u know, everytime u step out of any hotel bathroom, u'll freeze and wish ur hypothalamus wasnt working. yea. its a cold night.
just caught a
movie film with gen. titled la vie en rose*. its an art farty film. yes yes, its french. hur. im a sucker for all things french leh. anyway, it tells the life story of edith piaf**. thot the name rang a bell, and when i looked it up, i found her name on the wikipedia of moulin rouge. must have seen it when i was doing the cabaret project.
this woman, i tell u, is so full of nonsense. hur. the whole movie was punctuated with her sarcastic remarks. and haha, wikipedia says her height is 147 btw -.- movie was abit dark, cuz she was always on drugs and alcohol. but like the life! review, i thot it was abit messy with all the flashbacks. quite confusing. ohwells, maybe im just spoilt by mainstream.
oh ya, there was also this one part of her life, she was blinded by keratitis. and she went to the grave of
st. therese of lisieux to pray, after which she recovered. gen and i were like, wow... hur.
*la vie en rose was her signature song written in 1945
**piaf is not her surname. haha. its french slang for sparrow cuz she's so tiny like me (:
non, je ne regrette rien
11:28 pm
Thursday, 26 July 2007
last night was weird. had a really bad dream and i was in between slping and waking cuz i didnt want to have another nightmare ): ohwells.
lunched with gary. hurhur. had this talk so he waited for 3 hrs. oops. he had to chiong project anyway lah.
gen just called. both of us are really worried for mag. i guess, all she needs is time. go listen to love song for a saviour by jars of clay (:
found a quote maybelin added in one of our endless gmail threads:
"forgiveness is the fragrance the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it"
-mark twain-
god's love is unconditional.
mine should be too.
8:28 pm
Tuesday, 24 July 2007
someday she'll trust him
and learn how to see him
someday he'll call her
and she will come running
fall in his arms, the tears will fall down
and she'll pray i want to fall in love with you
12:25 am
Sunday, 22 July 2007
hokay, after one week without com, finally found the problem. the noob who came to install the new modem didnt un-install the old one -.- how noob is that!
anyways, today was kinda awesome pls. i was
programmer for
log. hurhur. and and we played hillsongs charades. lol. pnw was good too. basically, today was turning point for log. k, miracles thruout the week. wee...
miracle number 1:
we had core meeting last thurs and i thot of watching harry potter before tt. so i msged poey on tues. he watched it already but we kept replying each other tho he didnt know i was feeling suicidal. hur. thankyew po (:
miracle number 2:
today for pnw, we didnt put up lyrics. so during pnw, cuz most of the lyrics were in my head, i had to say the lyrics of the sentence before it was sung. den there was this verse i started with the first and second sentence. and after tt, i couldnt rmb any more. den i turned to liver who was on the keyboard. it was like side-glance kinda thing. and he continued with the third and forth sentence. it wasnt telepathy serious.
welcome back liver
met up with gen and mag with joan today. its funny how we quarrel and den after 5 mins, we rmb we're gfs again. we really quarreled. or at least mag and gen did. over beliefs. but i truly hope and know tt god will come in his own time for mag. so after a silence of not more than 10 mins, we were gfs again. even difference in beliefs cannot break us okay. hur.
talking abt best frens, u know what tt disgusting daniel ng did!! saw him in church today, in cj shirt and shorts. i thot he gg to play soccer or smtg la. didnt know he JUST CAME BACK. den he stood in front of me and asked me to breathe out. so i innocently did den he hugged me and yelled
CAN SMELL ME NOT!! WTH!! after which i chased him ard with adidas deodorant in my hand. bwahah. he die.
u know what. i have pathology quiz tml and i just learnt whatever im supposedly tested just now -.- screwed. anyways, had my sisterly-bonding time on friday night. hurhur. seriously, all 5 harry potter movies were with my sis lah. oh ya, moo moo died. lets all take a minute of silence to rmb nise's hamster.
k, wah. as u can see from my post, i was super desperate and deprived of the wonderful thing called internet. 'but even youths grow weary...' hur. some verse from somewhere, cant rmb. i wanna slp. after song transfer from soo!! woots.
i want to fall in love with you
11:19 pm
Tuesday, 17 July 2007
no, im not okay.
im not okay at all.
i want to let the tears out so badly.
really badly.
i want to scream at the top of my lungs.
i want to whine, pout and kick and throw things.
but i wont.
i cant.
how do i feel like shit and still manage to care abt how other pple feel.
how to love when i need love myself.
i dont want to be strong any more.
im so tired i just wanna fall.
even if i know no one is gonna catch me.
i said im tired.
its not like i have a choice.
4:34 pm
Thursday, 12 July 2007
hokay, shall blog with random one-liners today-i had a cat dissection today! woots-i want to post up pictures and make the whole world puke but im a nice girl-mr jomer is cute cuz he has a phillipino accent. hur-i frowned when i saw this guy wearing the cross upside down-makes me wanna show him mine, which is the right way up. show him how to wear the cross properly ):-SU dinner today was gooood! of cuz for some others, SU dinners are everyday-table topic started with hi-5! and then blue's clues, sesame street, barney, winx club etc etc. lol-jing wen and i were being irritating after i let her watch 'charlie the unicorn' on youtube. kope from poey's blog. hur-poey randomly msged me yday telling me he finally heard 'big girls dont cry', which i recommended a gazillion years ago-i was crossing the carpark between the bus stop and my hse when i saw this guy riding on his bike, one foot on the seat and one on the handle-no, it wasnt a tricycle-oliver is off to pattaya for a choir competition today-goal for the term/sem/year? : be more approachable to subcomms, and learn all their names!!-today is 12th july-harry potter and the order of the pheonix opens today ):- ): cuz i may not watch with my sis this time round [finally break tradition okay!]- ): also cuz i dont get to watch with gfs cuz i gotta go back jb to see my godma-i have tons of work to do-im gg off now, whether i want to or not-rawr-huggabugs you <3
11:14 pm
Monday, 9 July 2007
omg!! the uber adorable lil things!! hur.okay, seriously, the new blogger sucks lah. it runs on XHTML and youtube's HTML wont work. rawr. here's the link btw:
signal fire by snow patrolthe perfect words never crossed my mindcuz there was nothing in there but youi felt every ounce of me screaming outbut the sound was trapped deep in meall i wanted just sped right past mewhile i was rooted fast to the earthi could be stuck here for a thousand yearswithout your arms to drag me outthere you are standing right in front of methere you are standing right in front of meall this fear falls away to leave me nakedhold me close, cuz i need you to guide me to safetyno, i dont want to wait foreverin the confusion and the aftermathyou are my signal firethe only resolution and the only joyis the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes
10:55 pm
Sunday, 8 July 2007
hokay, after today's depressing 'session', was super disappointed. i've been thinking and thinking and cant seem to find a solution. a solution to i dont even know what. and i thot, okay, lets just go blog hopping like how i use to. so here i go, to every single logger who has a blog.
adam: im a social nerd. woots. im the contradiction.
anne: i know my nutcase 60%. damn, i knew it was between the walrus and dugong.
jes: checked out your quotes from harry potter. realise almost all are from dumbledore wise man.
jess: your last post was in march!! abt rockafella!! -.-
joan darl: i think its damn cool your family celebrates birthdays cuz mine dont
jon: dammit! you went for the archdiocesan youth day!!
justin kong: you another one! last post was in april! budden it was abt log so you're forgiven. hur.
justin sim: i refer to your post abt your parents and terribly good insight of relationships these days. too true.
kris: oceans will part, nations come at the whisper of your call. hope will rise, glory shown. in my life your will be done.
nise: i have a singing blind spot too!!
oliver lee!: haha. you wore the green and PINK shirt only once meh? how come the whole of log remembers tt shirt so well? hurhur.
poey!: chaaarrliiie!!!!
ricer: pls take care of yourself since sweden is so far away i doubt your parents will come home fast. and did i tell you i liked your giraffe blogskin 8977611435855764 years ago.
soo: eh, i just realised your dad damn cool
swee: your last post in may -.- budden thks for always doing sessions for us. im gonna forbid you from doing soon.
i miss you guys. i know we physically meet once every week. but i wished your soul had come along too. god is calling...
4:39 pm
Saturday, 7 July 2007
yay!! i found it i found it i found it!! during ltc, one of the advisors, cant rmb who, played this video. some jap animation. damn cute pls. poey send it to me before. he played only part 2 but must watch part 1 den the second part will seem cuter. hur.
i got the music of part 2!! ask me send to you pls ((:
there she is part 1there she is part 2
8:50 pm
Friday, 6 July 2007
ahah. im back. finished apel and half of biochem. finished only half cuz i stupidly copied the TCA cycle wrongly so i gotta redo the blardy thang. rawr.
talking abt apel, i think paul hates me. yes, my very own cp ): from tt day he gave out my biochem paper already. he must already know abt how 'well' i did for term test cuz he snapped at me today. rawr. and it doesnt help tt i didnt really like him to begin with. -pouts-
anyways, i did smtg really _____ yday. k, i dunno whats the adjective. haha. i think i've been owing my parents alot la. so i wrote them a postcard explaining everything. and my sis too. haha. abit weird, budden i always rmb my dad's msges asking when im coming home, and my mum literally forcing me to drink all sorts of herbal teas before i step out of the hse.
i think it must be the same for the other excos. tt day, yuting's mum called in the middle of nowhere just to ask if she's had dinner. hurhur. and jingwen's mum sponsors her cab fare just to get her home earlier. sigh. for whatever my mum says, she makes up for it lah. ohwells.
hokay, project meeting at ECP tml -.- hahah. wtbbq.
love deeper
11:59 pm
Aurora Borealis is finally over. i think it was a huge success. -beams- im gonna watch the real aurora in my lifetime pls. anyways, kim's speech yday: 'we are all part of the same body. without the other clubs, we are without hands and limbs' kinda reminded me of 1corinthians 12
von must learn how to say no. im already spread thin as it is. from now on, it shld only be SU and studies. and log la. but tt's on sundays.
tml is Live Earth event. woots. support conservation!! wear
green!! anyways, i have project meeting tml. and my grpmates didnt wanna do it in school. so i suggested, go beach lah. and they all sillily agreed. hurhur. got sillily this word meh? tt's besides the point. so we're gg ECP tml to do project. like wth. haha.
hokay, i better bo slogging my guts out over hw soon. rawr. outta here.
Tuesday, 3 July 2007
hokay, finally a day to take a breather. for 5 mins!! i need to get back on my feet to do stuff soon. anyways, home from DSC AGM. hurhur. disappearing studies club. i think the disappearing one is ASC pls. no sign of them at all just now. all prolly at AC's.
ohwells. cuz my ah bu is the organiser, i must say quite impressive. haha. got lotsa performances, much like a concert. but the turn out was a shame. they dont know what they're missing. actually the performers were all average except sleeq. budden im quite impressed tt they had so many contacts.
im home so early cuz my mum kao bei yday. mums can be so hurtful sometimes know. before i ran for elections, i told them what. just so tt they'ld know this is life changing and routines, like coming home early, might go. and i told mummy gimme 2 weeks okay! after tt, no more AGMs [thank god] and i'll be back as early as they want me. it kinda stung when she said 'resign lah' when tt wasnt what i needed to hear. budden im fine now. prolly motivated by the good night's slp ahead. hur.
playing ard with my cambell's soup now. it looks utterly disgusting. cuz i was lazy and didnt dissolve everything. hur. got lumps all. anyways, woots. been baking cookies the past few days. tons and tons of them pls. bake til the
cows giraffes come home and still not done. sherry's family keep ordering den we hadta keep baking. good thing money rolls in. hurhur. we charge wrongly some more, so for these first few batches we lost money. like quite an amount. sigh.
ohwells. i was thinking if i ever graduate with a bloody lousy gpa, i might just bake cookies for the rest of my life. haha. the simple life. sweet.
right, my few minutes of rest at blogger is up. back to the hectic life i chose. rawr. im wondering what sound a giraffe makes. hmmm, do they eat cookies?
10:22 pm
Sunday, 1 July 2007
after many dinner-less nights, finally got to spent some family time today. woots. tho it was only dinner. haha. dinner important okay! anyways, finished early and decided to have a last minute meet-up with gen. since she couldnt make it last week.
was good lah. she came back with many stories from youth in spirit seminar [yiss] and all i can say is god works in weird [awesome] ways.
smtg happened yday and as i held her, i strongly felt this girl needed Him. but i just couldnt or didnt know how to bring Him to her. den i shared this with gen and lo and behold, this silly girl expressed interest in gg st. anne's before. woots. revelation pls. sjcians unite. hur. and so if this silly girl is reading this, pls know gen and i are here for you!!
von is a very bad girl. von's mommy asked if von passed all term test papers and von said yes. [oops] i truly am very afraid. but i know its not impossible. got too many things to do in the day? sleep less lah! which is exactly what im gonna do now. mug mug mug. go von go.
if only my one heart was all u gained from all it cost
well i know you would have still been a man
with a reason to willingly offer ur life
-sea of faces-
10:54 pm
hokay, SU AGM on the 5th. pls come support. theme is aurora borealis tho im not sure you'ld need to wear anything special.
the real [awesome] aurora borealis
hokay, next up is the LIVE EARTH concert on 070707. hur. yes, the biggest words there are 'save our planet' no explanations needed. oh ya, wear green too. yay-ness. and cut down on electricity, paper, water etc etc.
anyways, back from subcomm camp. with exceptions to programme flow i think the camp was a success and glenn and ger did a great job. woots. i want more camps pls!! super shacked now lah. stupid cab driver took ten years to get me home last night. dunno where he drive to. the meter went up to 15 bucks den i asked if he drove the wrong way, he said no what. den he charged me cheaper. hur. im still craving for teh-bing.
and and and, i need to start studying. term test was horrible i almost cried on friday. rawr.
do you think it is worth fighting for
to know that there is so much more to this